Seandai dari hati kau bermadah. Cinta itu takkan membawa padah. Melainkan kau terlari syahadah. Di hujung jalan kau melatah. Kiramu niatmu mencari tuah. Melainkan sekarang mengakui kalah.
Seandai kau empunya nama. Walau hanya seraut wajah. Di bawah mentari engkaulah segala. Di muka pintu tangan yang halus mengadah. Berbekal telekung dan sejadah.
Seandai dari hati kau bermadah. Cinta itu takkan membawa padah. Akupun pastinya takkan resah. Jauh sekali mukaku diludah.
Demi kelakianmu yang rapuh.
Demi cintamu yang tak bersungguh
Demi pelukanmu yang tak menyeluruh
Demi sesuatu yang tertangguh
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Berdusta
Usah lagi berdusta. Tentang semalam atau kelmarin. Kerana di hati tersimpan nota. Dan jiwa tidak bernoktah. Bagaimana nanti esok atau lusa?.
Usah lagi berdusta. Di samar-samar kota yang dibina. Tersergam berdiri sebuah istana. Biar saja apa yang direka. Apa saja yang engkau suka. Terlarikah dari nyatanya yang dicipta? Luhurkah apa yang dikata? Indahkah ia seperti yang dirupa?
Usahlah lagi berdusta. Tentang apa yang dirasa.
Jangan lagi kau berpura-pura
Usah lagi berdusta. Di samar-samar kota yang dibina. Tersergam berdiri sebuah istana. Biar saja apa yang direka. Apa saja yang engkau suka. Terlarikah dari nyatanya yang dicipta? Luhurkah apa yang dikata? Indahkah ia seperti yang dirupa?
Usahlah lagi berdusta. Tentang apa yang dirasa.
Jangan lagi kau berpura-pura
Aku Dikatakan Gila
Aku dikatakan gila. Oleh mulut yang manis dan jiwa yang mulia. Dalam satu perbualan yang diatur baik bahasanya.
Aku dikatakan gila. Keranaku cerita dari hati semata. Segala yang ada apa yang aku rasa. Dan kubertanya sejujur tanpa dusta.
Aku dikatakan gila.
Aku dikatakan gila. Kerana ku yakini Tuhan ada. Lalu padaNyalahku gantungkan segala. Dan padaNyalah kuratapi sengsara. Selalu pasti bagiku esok kan ada.
Aku dikatakan gila. Demi sebuah cinta yang bertakhta. Ia bukan rekaan semata. Walau berkali-kaliku katakana, ia tetapkan ada. Walau tak berharga. Walau tak diterima.
Aku dikatakan gila. Oleh sekeping hati yang damba. Oleh satu jiwa yang lebih hampir dari nyawa.
Aku dikatakan gila. Keranaku cerita dari hati semata. Segala yang ada apa yang aku rasa. Dan kubertanya sejujur tanpa dusta.
Aku dikatakan gila.
Aku dikatakan gila. Kerana ku yakini Tuhan ada. Lalu padaNyalahku gantungkan segala. Dan padaNyalah kuratapi sengsara. Selalu pasti bagiku esok kan ada.
Aku dikatakan gila. Demi sebuah cinta yang bertakhta. Ia bukan rekaan semata. Walau berkali-kaliku katakana, ia tetapkan ada. Walau tak berharga. Walau tak diterima.
Aku dikatakan gila. Oleh sekeping hati yang damba. Oleh satu jiwa yang lebih hampir dari nyawa.
Hati Yang Bernanah
Hinggakan kini aku sudah tak mengerti lagi. Entah apa rupanya belang yang ada ditubuhku atau kesar yang tak terhidu. Entah-entah tanpa sedarku, isiku luluh dimamah kusta. Maka bertempiaran larilah semuanya.
Demi sebuah cinta yang harganya tak seberapa. Lalu hadirnya memalapkan sinar sang kejora. Maka berubahlah suasana kesemua yang dikatakan sudah terbina.
Laluku sedari hanya bila merasa. Sebenarnya tubuhku kecil, seorang yang hina. Tibaku telah mengeruhkan susasana. Lalu dipinta janganku sebut namamu dalam doa.
Itulah ertinya hina, sehina-hinanya. Miskin di dunia, papa di akhirat sana. Siapa yang mahu beristana. Di sekeping hati, berdarah beku dan bernanah
Demi sebuah cinta yang harganya tak seberapa. Lalu hadirnya memalapkan sinar sang kejora. Maka berubahlah suasana kesemua yang dikatakan sudah terbina.
Laluku sedari hanya bila merasa. Sebenarnya tubuhku kecil, seorang yang hina. Tibaku telah mengeruhkan susasana. Lalu dipinta janganku sebut namamu dalam doa.
Itulah ertinya hina, sehina-hinanya. Miskin di dunia, papa di akhirat sana. Siapa yang mahu beristana. Di sekeping hati, berdarah beku dan bernanah
Penanti
Seorang teman
Seorang pencinta
Pernah ia katakan
Padaku
Aku penanti
Yang setia
Di pinggir laut
Sekali air pasang
Aku bernyanyi
Berenang-renang
Sekali air surut
Aku sepi
Namun terus menanti
Katanya lagi
Kedua-duanya bagiku
Amat bererti
Seorang pencinta
Pernah ia katakan
Padaku
Aku penanti
Yang setia
Di pinggir laut
Sekali air pasang
Aku bernyanyi
Berenang-renang
Sekali air surut
Aku sepi
Namun terus menanti
Katanya lagi
Kedua-duanya bagiku
Amat bererti
Final Blow
The last day of the year, I was delivered with a final blow.
Was said to be one of the 'ajaran sesat followers'.
Was said to be as my head's 'off sikit'...(like crazy)
It hurts like nothing before.
With all the seriousness it's being delivered
to cover it a little later
and say it's a joke
I will remember this day
for the rest of my life
like I will remember
say what you mean
mean what you say
Was said to be one of the 'ajaran sesat followers'.
Was said to be as my head's 'off sikit'...(like crazy)
It hurts like nothing before.
With all the seriousness it's being delivered
to cover it a little later
and say it's a joke
I will remember this day
for the rest of my life
like I will remember
say what you mean
mean what you say
Monday, December 29, 2008
Khatijah
Pronounced as: 'Kha dee jaa'
Means ‘early baby’ or ‘premature child’
Perfect woman
The wife of the Prophet (pbuh)
Mother of all his (pbuh) children
Named in the Quran as one of the four perfect women (others being Fatima, Mary and Aisya)
Means ‘early baby’ or ‘premature child’
Perfect woman
The wife of the Prophet (pbuh)
Mother of all his (pbuh) children
Named in the Quran as one of the four perfect women (others being Fatima, Mary and Aisya)
Laut Yang Dalam
Ku selami
Laut yang dalam
Mencarimu
Lalu
Di hujung nafasku
Kutemui dirimu
Pada ketika
Tersebut namamu
Di hatiku
bermulalah
getaran jantungku
Tahukah engkau kekasih
Yang tersebut di setiap palu
Adalah namamu
Hinggakan
Terdengar di telingaku
Menyerap ke seluruh kalbu
Dan bernafas
tubuhku
Laut yang dalam
Mencarimu
Lalu
Di hujung nafasku
Kutemui dirimu
Pada ketika
Tersebut namamu
Di hatiku
bermulalah
getaran jantungku
Tahukah engkau kekasih
Yang tersebut di setiap palu
Adalah namamu
Hinggakan
Terdengar di telingaku
Menyerap ke seluruh kalbu
Dan bernafas
tubuhku
Jauh Untuk Didekati
Di lautan pemisah ini
Ombak bagaikan tak keruan
Kepedihan ini berpanjangan
Dalam tidak berkemungkinan
Kasih berkekalan
Tak pernah jenuh
Aku di sini menanti
Tanpaku jemu
Akukan tetap di sini
Aku pernah kelalaian
Kiranya hidupku dulu
mengatasi segala
Ada tertawa
Ada terluka
Hinggaku sedari
Kau terlalu jauh
Tak dapat kudekati
Sampai bilaku bisa bertahan
Bebanan cinta ini
dalam sedikit ruang
Kanku kekang sezaman
Ombak bagaikan tak keruan
Kepedihan ini berpanjangan
Dalam tidak berkemungkinan
Kasih berkekalan
Tak pernah jenuh
Aku di sini menanti
Tanpaku jemu
Akukan tetap di sini
Aku pernah kelalaian
Kiranya hidupku dulu
mengatasi segala
Ada tertawa
Ada terluka
Hinggaku sedari
Kau terlalu jauh
Tak dapat kudekati
Sampai bilaku bisa bertahan
Bebanan cinta ini
dalam sedikit ruang
Kanku kekang sezaman
Colorful, Faith-full
Are you
Colorful enough
Or you are going to kill
More children
Women
And the innocent
Ruining mother earth
Are you
Faith-full enough
Or you are going to kill
One another
And you yourself
Bringing down civilizations
Aren’t we just barbaric?
Just where are
The wise ones
When the virtue-less
Lead the world astray
Colorful enough
Or you are going to kill
More children
Women
And the innocent
Ruining mother earth
Are you
Faith-full enough
Or you are going to kill
One another
And you yourself
Bringing down civilizations
Aren’t we just barbaric?
Just where are
The wise ones
When the virtue-less
Lead the world astray
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Lengkapi Keindahan
Tuhanku pohonkan
Kau lengkapi keindahan
Bagi seorang insan
Yang mengerti ketabahan
Tuhanku pohonkan
Kau lengkapi ketabahan
Bagi seorang insan
Yang mengerti keimanan
Tuhanku pohonkan
Kau lengkapi keimanan
Bagi seorang insan
Yang mengerti ketakwaan
Tuhanku pohonkan
Kau lengkapi ketakwaan
Bagi seorang insan
Yang mengerti keihsanan
Tuhanku pohonkan
Kau lengkapi keihsanan
Bagi seorang insan
Yang telah lama mengenalMu
Kau lengkapi keindahan
Bagi seorang insan
Yang mengerti ketabahan
Tuhanku pohonkan
Kau lengkapi ketabahan
Bagi seorang insan
Yang mengerti keimanan
Tuhanku pohonkan
Kau lengkapi keimanan
Bagi seorang insan
Yang mengerti ketakwaan
Tuhanku pohonkan
Kau lengkapi ketakwaan
Bagi seorang insan
Yang mengerti keihsanan
Tuhanku pohonkan
Kau lengkapi keihsanan
Bagi seorang insan
Yang telah lama mengenalMu
Lakaran Realiti
Janganlah kau ulangi berkali-kali
Sebenarnya sudah terbukti kini
Aku tidak bermimpi atau lupa diri
Rasa dan anggaranku hampir realiti
Bila terbentang lukisan ini
Segala kisah yang kau lalui
Yang lakarannya di hatiku selama ini
Bukan ia kebetulan ataupun misteri
Aku tak takut menangis lagi
Biar cintaku tak kau hargai
Di depanku kebenaran jelas berdiri
Kubawa kau dapat syufaat nabi
Duhai Nabi Kekasih Abadi
Kubawa ini wanita pekerti
Sambutlah salamnya berakhirlah sepi
Tempatkan dia bersama mereka yang suci
Saat inilah ketikanya kasih
Akukan pergi, hati tak tersisih
Ketika sejahteramu di kandung Kekasih
Akukan melangkah tanpa sedih
Sebenarnya sudah terbukti kini
Aku tidak bermimpi atau lupa diri
Rasa dan anggaranku hampir realiti
Bila terbentang lukisan ini
Segala kisah yang kau lalui
Yang lakarannya di hatiku selama ini
Bukan ia kebetulan ataupun misteri
Aku tak takut menangis lagi
Biar cintaku tak kau hargai
Di depanku kebenaran jelas berdiri
Kubawa kau dapat syufaat nabi
Duhai Nabi Kekasih Abadi
Kubawa ini wanita pekerti
Sambutlah salamnya berakhirlah sepi
Tempatkan dia bersama mereka yang suci
Saat inilah ketikanya kasih
Akukan pergi, hati tak tersisih
Ketika sejahteramu di kandung Kekasih
Akukan melangkah tanpa sedih
Wanita Tersimpuh
Tuhanku
Dalam qiamku
mengadapMu
Ya Wajibal Ujud
Lalu musnahlah
Segala ungkapan aku
Bagi diriku
Dalam diamku
Masih ada bibit-bibit
Sekeping hati seorang wanita
Kubawa bersama
dalam terluka
Bersenandung duka
Tuhanku
Demi keagunganMu
Keindahan ayatMu
Tampak jelas di matanya
Seorang wanita tersimpuh
Tabah menantikan harinya
Tangisnya dalam tertawa
katanya keramat sebuah sumpah
'hari segala keindahan itu
pastikan tiba'
Tuhanku
DemiMu Yang Pengasih
DemiMu Yang Menyayangi
Seorang wanita yang tertunduk
Lalu termimpi rumahMu
Semakin kuat ia memeluk
Sehelai sejadah dan telekung usang
Satu pengakuan bersaksikan bayang
Ibu si peribadi yang tak lekang
Tuhanku, kupohon
Bukalah pintuMu
Bawakan masuk wanita itu
Bersama pilihanMu
Bukalah pintuMu
Bawakan masuk wanita itu
Bersama pilihanMu
Bukalah pintuMu
Bawakan masuk wanita itu
Bersama pilihanMu
Sementara itu
Kubimbit terus hatinya
Kubawa bersujud
Kubawa bermohon
Kubawa berungkap-ungkapan
Kubawa bersebut-sebutan
Kubawa berpuji-pujian
Kubawa bertasbih kemalaikatan
Kan kubawa terus
Biar tangisanku cecah
Ke akhir zaman
Dalam qiamku
mengadapMu
Ya Wajibal Ujud
Lalu musnahlah
Segala ungkapan aku
Bagi diriku
Dalam diamku
Masih ada bibit-bibit
Sekeping hati seorang wanita
Kubawa bersama
dalam terluka
Bersenandung duka
Tuhanku
Demi keagunganMu
Keindahan ayatMu
Tampak jelas di matanya
Seorang wanita tersimpuh
Tabah menantikan harinya
Tangisnya dalam tertawa
katanya keramat sebuah sumpah
'hari segala keindahan itu
pastikan tiba'
Tuhanku
DemiMu Yang Pengasih
DemiMu Yang Menyayangi
Seorang wanita yang tertunduk
Lalu termimpi rumahMu
Semakin kuat ia memeluk
Sehelai sejadah dan telekung usang
Satu pengakuan bersaksikan bayang
Ibu si peribadi yang tak lekang
Tuhanku, kupohon
Bukalah pintuMu
Bawakan masuk wanita itu
Bersama pilihanMu
Bukalah pintuMu
Bawakan masuk wanita itu
Bersama pilihanMu
Bukalah pintuMu
Bawakan masuk wanita itu
Bersama pilihanMu
Sementara itu
Kubimbit terus hatinya
Kubawa bersujud
Kubawa bermohon
Kubawa berungkap-ungkapan
Kubawa bersebut-sebutan
Kubawa berpuji-pujian
Kubawa bertasbih kemalaikatan
Kan kubawa terus
Biar tangisanku cecah
Ke akhir zaman
Hanya Untukmu
Jika kau terima
Sebuah cinta
Yang adanya
Hanya untukmu
Pasti terkanun
Dirimu dalam hatiku
Untukku bawa bersama
Dalam tunduk
Dalam sujudku
Sebuah cinta
Bukannya bahan
Untukku meminta
apa jua balasan
hanya untuk kau akui
hentikan bahasanmu
bahwa cinta ini
hanya untukmu
Sebuah cinta
Yang adanya
Hanya untukmu
Pasti terkanun
Dirimu dalam hatiku
Untukku bawa bersama
Dalam tunduk
Dalam sujudku
Sebuah cinta
Bukannya bahan
Untukku meminta
apa jua balasan
hanya untuk kau akui
hentikan bahasanmu
bahwa cinta ini
hanya untukmu
Friday, December 26, 2008
If I'd Go
If I’d go
And be gone far away
I’d come to a land
Where people live
Only to long for
If I’d drown
In your soul
I’d come to a place
Where I’d live
In a familiar you
Should I despised you
Yet there’s no hatred within
I am standing just right here
Next to all that you thought
I’d stay on loving you
My life drifts on
Failures in my past
When I found you
I see the light
Unseen in my entire life
Yet it’s meaningless to you
If only you’d care
Touch me on my heart
I’ll always be next to you
Unless you’d choose
To kid me with it
And be gone far away
I’d come to a land
Where people live
Only to long for
If I’d drown
In your soul
I’d come to a place
Where I’d live
In a familiar you
Should I despised you
Yet there’s no hatred within
I am standing just right here
Next to all that you thought
I’d stay on loving you
My life drifts on
Failures in my past
When I found you
I see the light
Unseen in my entire life
Yet it’s meaningless to you
If only you’d care
Touch me on my heart
I’ll always be next to you
Unless you’d choose
To kid me with it
Meniti Jalan
Sendiri
Meniti jalan
Jiwa kehausan
Satu pertemuan
menung di pinggiran
berteman sesalan
dosa-dosa silam
sujud keampunan
mahuku susuli lagi
jalan-jalan kita lalui
mahuku berulang lagi
ketika bersamamu
sayang sekali
Hatimu terkunci
Tiada kekosongan lagi
Untukku memberi
Sayangnya
Kehadiran ini
disambut kedinginan
tiada bererti
tak seindah mimpi
sendiri
Meniti jalan
kupeluk kenangan
dalam kesyahduan
Meniti jalan
Jiwa kehausan
Satu pertemuan
menung di pinggiran
berteman sesalan
dosa-dosa silam
sujud keampunan
mahuku susuli lagi
jalan-jalan kita lalui
mahuku berulang lagi
ketika bersamamu
sayang sekali
Hatimu terkunci
Tiada kekosongan lagi
Untukku memberi
Sayangnya
Kehadiran ini
disambut kedinginan
tiada bererti
tak seindah mimpi
sendiri
Meniti jalan
kupeluk kenangan
dalam kesyahduan
Pencinta Setia
Adapun ia
Kasih tak berharga
Tak berpaut sendirian
Sapa tak bersahutan
Sesekali jengah ke hati
Sendiri jauh menyendiri
lalu kau namakan
satu sandiwara
Sebuah sampan
hanyut di lautan sepi
Terumbang-ambing
dipukul ombak yang tinggi
Lemas hingga sesaknya nafas
menanggung rindu
Alam kurasa sepi
tanpa cintamu
malam tiada cahaya
masih mau jua
menumpamg di sudut hati
Pada Tuhan aku berserah
Mahuku kau kecapi bahagia
duniamu damai sejahtera
dariku
pencinta yang setia
Kasih tak berharga
Tak berpaut sendirian
Sapa tak bersahutan
Sesekali jengah ke hati
Sendiri jauh menyendiri
lalu kau namakan
satu sandiwara
Sebuah sampan
hanyut di lautan sepi
Terumbang-ambing
dipukul ombak yang tinggi
Lemas hingga sesaknya nafas
menanggung rindu
Alam kurasa sepi
tanpa cintamu
malam tiada cahaya
masih mau jua
menumpamg di sudut hati
Pada Tuhan aku berserah
Mahuku kau kecapi bahagia
duniamu damai sejahtera
dariku
pencinta yang setia
Missing You
When I missed you
My love got stronger
I got a little restless
With the vision of your face
To tell me how much I adore you
Even more
When I lose sight of you
My soul went silent
I’d wait for you to come back
Enough for a blink of an eye
When I missed you
I became so lonely
All that overwhelmed me
Will never be enough of you
As long as I live
As long as I love you
No matter the distance apart
I’d stay on loving you
As long as I live
I will always miss you
I am so lonely
Whenever I missed you
I will never get tired
I will wait on
My love got stronger
I got a little restless
With the vision of your face
To tell me how much I adore you
Even more
When I lose sight of you
My soul went silent
I’d wait for you to come back
Enough for a blink of an eye
When I missed you
I became so lonely
All that overwhelmed me
Will never be enough of you
As long as I live
As long as I love you
No matter the distance apart
I’d stay on loving you
As long as I live
I will always miss you
I am so lonely
Whenever I missed you
I will never get tired
I will wait on
Shower of Dew
I shall find
The loneliest path
To stay away
To search on
But for nothing
Deep in the mist
A shower of dew
So cold
It froze my heart
So much hurt
So much of pretense
So much of love
My heart just can’t hate
The loneliest path
To stay away
To search on
But for nothing
Deep in the mist
A shower of dew
So cold
It froze my heart
So much hurt
So much of pretense
So much of love
My heart just can’t hate
Cinta Kain Putih
Ku jalan sendiri tiada tempat
Untuk menanti
Tiada mu aku menyepi
Bayanganmu aku mencari
Ku sangkakan hujan
Tapi taufan datang melanda
Ku mencari tanpa pegangan
Dan tersungkur di ketepian
Kain putih yang kuberi padamu
Kini pudar warna-warnanya
Kuselimut di atas ikal rambutmu
Kian jatuh terus cecah ke bahu
Ku mencari bayangmu tiada
Di langit biru di lautan api
Kau hilang dan semakin jauh
Hujung dunia kita berjumpa
Bila ku lihat kau dihancur
Bagaikan luruh bunga yang gugur
Kusunting dirimu
Kan kugenggam hatimu itu
Kan kujaga bagai bungaku
Kau kan tumbuh terus mewangi
Kau mekarlah wahai mu bunga
Subur mewangi didalam hati
jangan gugur skali lagi
bila kau jatuh terus menyepi
Untuk menanti
Tiada mu aku menyepi
Bayanganmu aku mencari
Ku sangkakan hujan
Tapi taufan datang melanda
Ku mencari tanpa pegangan
Dan tersungkur di ketepian
Kain putih yang kuberi padamu
Kini pudar warna-warnanya
Kuselimut di atas ikal rambutmu
Kian jatuh terus cecah ke bahu
Ku mencari bayangmu tiada
Di langit biru di lautan api
Kau hilang dan semakin jauh
Hujung dunia kita berjumpa
Bila ku lihat kau dihancur
Bagaikan luruh bunga yang gugur
Kusunting dirimu
Kan kugenggam hatimu itu
Kan kujaga bagai bungaku
Kau kan tumbuh terus mewangi
Kau mekarlah wahai mu bunga
Subur mewangi didalam hati
jangan gugur skali lagi
bila kau jatuh terus menyepi
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Sedetik
Sedetik
Aku terpandang
Kau datang
Mencecah hati
Sedetik
Aku terpejam
Kau datang
Keseluruh diri
Sedetik
Aku terlupa
Kau datang
Berbisik di telinga
Aku terpandang
Kau datang
Mencecah hati
Sedetik
Aku terpejam
Kau datang
Keseluruh diri
Sedetik
Aku terlupa
Kau datang
Berbisik di telinga
Over The 5 Days
Over the 5 days
I’ll stay put
Holding my feet
To where I am
Over the 5 days
I’ll hold strong
Clutching my hands
To what I feel
Over the 5 days
I’ll wait on
Standing against time
I will never get more tired
Than I already am
I’ll stay put
Holding my feet
To where I am
Over the 5 days
I’ll hold strong
Clutching my hands
To what I feel
Over the 5 days
I’ll wait on
Standing against time
I will never get more tired
Than I already am
The Final Account
Ask the judge
Of the day
When the earth gives up
Her secrets
And tells all her tales
The same day
All men marches on
In companies
Seeing the inwards
Their deeds
Not the tinniest grain
Of good or evil
But will be shown
In the final account
Of the day
When the earth gives up
Her secrets
And tells all her tales
The same day
All men marches on
In companies
Seeing the inwards
Their deeds
Not the tinniest grain
Of good or evil
But will be shown
In the final account
A Mutual Rivalry
A mutual rivalry
A pile of good things
Diverts attention
From serious things
Upon the end of the day
Reality prevails
With certainty of minds
Sees the fire
In certainty of sight
A pile of good things
Diverts attention
From serious things
Upon the end of the day
Reality prevails
With certainty of minds
Sees the fire
In certainty of sight
Strategi
Jelas dari langkahmu
Kau menari
Sambil mengatur
Sebuah strategi
Malah kau pasti
Mahuku sedari
Bagimu semua ini
Sebuah mimpi
buat sekali
berdirilah di sini
agar bisa kau amati
perspektif ini
perasaan ini
bukanku bina sendiri
atau kuukirkan
dengan kemahuan sendiri
ia berputik di hati
takkan berlalu pergi
ketuklah sekuat hati
kepalaku ini
malah bertambahku sedari
pada hakiki
siapalah aku ini
Kau menari
Sambil mengatur
Sebuah strategi
Malah kau pasti
Mahuku sedari
Bagimu semua ini
Sebuah mimpi
buat sekali
berdirilah di sini
agar bisa kau amati
perspektif ini
perasaan ini
bukanku bina sendiri
atau kuukirkan
dengan kemahuan sendiri
ia berputik di hati
takkan berlalu pergi
ketuklah sekuat hati
kepalaku ini
malah bertambahku sedari
pada hakiki
siapalah aku ini
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Malam Sepi
malam ini
terasa sepi
bilaku hampiri
kau damai sekali
membawa tidurku
bermimpi
malam ini
terasa sunyi
bilaku sentuhi
kau tenang sekali
membawa lenaku
kau di hati
malam ini
terasa sunyi
terasa sepi
terasa sepi
bilaku hampiri
kau damai sekali
membawa tidurku
bermimpi
malam ini
terasa sunyi
bilaku sentuhi
kau tenang sekali
membawa lenaku
kau di hati
malam ini
terasa sunyi
terasa sepi
Aku Ada Di Sisi
Berbisiklah lagi
Di malam yang sepi
Tetapku dengari
Aku ada di sisi
Berceritalah lagi
Di kamar yang sepi
Tetapku hayati
Aku masih di sini
Merataplah lagi
Di malam yang dingin
Tetapku tangisi
Tak sesaat kujauhi
Di malam yang sepi
Tetapku dengari
Aku ada di sisi
Berceritalah lagi
Di kamar yang sepi
Tetapku hayati
Aku masih di sini
Merataplah lagi
Di malam yang dingin
Tetapku tangisi
Tak sesaat kujauhi
Buat Sekali
Cubalah barang sekali
Kau tatapi wajahmu sendiri
Dari mataku ini
Nescaya kau sedari
Agungnya cinta ini
Kenapa berkali-kali
Senang-senang kau nafikan
Sesuatu yang lahir sendiri
Dari hati
Enggan ia bersembunyi
Pandanglah buat sekali
Dari mataku ini
Pasti kaukan mengerti
Ini bukan mimpi
Mahupun sebuah misteri
Kau tatapi wajahmu sendiri
Dari mataku ini
Nescaya kau sedari
Agungnya cinta ini
Kenapa berkali-kali
Senang-senang kau nafikan
Sesuatu yang lahir sendiri
Dari hati
Enggan ia bersembunyi
Pandanglah buat sekali
Dari mataku ini
Pasti kaukan mengerti
Ini bukan mimpi
Mahupun sebuah misteri
Layang-Layang Terputus Tali
This one is the Alleycat's. I am pretty good in this song. It's a meaningful song to me. I will just strive on and move on no matter how hard it has always been, to remain who I am. I trust that there will be sunlight.
Berarak mendung kelabu
Mengekori langkahku
Sepanjang kehidupan
Penuh dugaan
Namun aku tetap aku
Kucuba dan terus mencuba
Mencapai suria
Walau membakar jiwa
Walau aku dihina
Namun aku tetap aku
Derita oh derita
Engkau di mana-mana
Walaupun jauh aku berlari
Mahupun berdiam diri
Namun indah mimpi dari realiti
Hidupku tanpa arah
Bagaikan layang-layang
Terputus talinya
Tapi pasti suatu hari nanti
Sinar suriakan menjelma
Berarak mendung kelabu
Mengekori langkahku
Sepanjang kehidupan
Penuh dugaan
Namun aku tetap aku
Kucuba dan terus mencuba
Mencapai suria
Walau membakar jiwa
Walau aku dihina
Namun aku tetap aku
Derita oh derita
Engkau di mana-mana
Walaupun jauh aku berlari
Mahupun berdiam diri
Namun indah mimpi dari realiti
Hidupku tanpa arah
Bagaikan layang-layang
Terputus talinya
Tapi pasti suatu hari nanti
Sinar suriakan menjelma
Everything I Do, I Do It For You
Sometimes it's just hard to tell someone that it is so true when she goes around denying it.
Look into my eyes
you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart
search your soul
And when you find me there
you'll search no more
Don't tell me
it's not worth trying for
You can't tell me
it's not worth dying for
You know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you
Look into your heart
you will find
There's nothing there to hide
Take me as I am
take my life
I would give it all
I would sacrifice
Don't tell me
it's not worth fighting for
I can't help it
there's nothing I want more
You know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you
There's no love
like your love
And no other
could give more love
There's nowhere
unless you're there
All the time
all the way
you can't tell me
it's not worth trying for
I can't help it
there's nothing I want more
I would fight for you
I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you
I'd die for you
You know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you
Look into my eyes
you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart
search your soul
And when you find me there
you'll search no more
Don't tell me
it's not worth trying for
You can't tell me
it's not worth dying for
You know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you
Look into your heart
you will find
There's nothing there to hide
Take me as I am
take my life
I would give it all
I would sacrifice
Don't tell me
it's not worth fighting for
I can't help it
there's nothing I want more
You know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you
There's no love
like your love
And no other
could give more love
There's nowhere
unless you're there
All the time
all the way
you can't tell me
it's not worth trying for
I can't help it
there's nothing I want more
I would fight for you
I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you
I'd die for you
You know it's true
Everything I do
I do it for you
Monday, December 22, 2008
Burung Pungguk
This is a great song by Datuk Sharifah Aini. I was called as such when I was in school, and felt so bad. I was 17 then. Today at 44, I found the lyrics. This is great. This is so meaningful...
Oh burung pungguk malang nasibmu
Rupamu buruk tak siapa yang mahu
Bila malam telah tiba
Di langit bulan bercahaya
Kau berbunyi berhiba-hiba
Merindukan bulan purnama
Sungguh suaramu menawan hati
Kedengaran di pohon kayu
Bagaikan bintang dikasihi
Tetapi wahai pungguk
Kau tak diacuhkan
Walaupun kau merajuk meratapi diri
Bulan hanya bagai mengatakan
Oh oh oh kasihan
Malang nasibmu
Wahai burung pungguk
Tidak seperti si burung nuri
Di dalam sangkar
Dikasihi lelaki dan perempuan
Untuk menghibur hati yang rawan
Dikasihi lelaki dan perempuan
Untuk menghibur hati yang rawan
Oh burung pungguk malang nasibmu
Rupamu buruk tak siapa yang mahu
Oh burung pungguk malang nasibmu
Rupamu buruk tak siapa yang mahu
Bila malam telah tiba
Di langit bulan bercahaya
Kau berbunyi berhiba-hiba
Merindukan bulan purnama
Sungguh suaramu menawan hati
Kedengaran di pohon kayu
Bagaikan bintang dikasihi
Tetapi wahai pungguk
Kau tak diacuhkan
Walaupun kau merajuk meratapi diri
Bulan hanya bagai mengatakan
Oh oh oh kasihan
Malang nasibmu
Wahai burung pungguk
Tidak seperti si burung nuri
Di dalam sangkar
Dikasihi lelaki dan perempuan
Untuk menghibur hati yang rawan
Dikasihi lelaki dan perempuan
Untuk menghibur hati yang rawan
Oh burung pungguk malang nasibmu
Rupamu buruk tak siapa yang mahu
Gurisan-Gurisan Hati
Cintaku
Gurisan-gurisan kecil
Di kelopak hati
Masih merah berdarah
Semakin tega ia
Rinduku
Titis-titis darah
Dari hati kecilku
Tangis di jiwaku
Semakin panjang ia
Kasihku
Parut-parut luka
Di pinggir hatiku
Yang terasa sakitnya
Pabila tersentuh
Gurisan-gurisan kecil
Di kelopak hati
Masih merah berdarah
Semakin tega ia
Rinduku
Titis-titis darah
Dari hati kecilku
Tangis di jiwaku
Semakin panjang ia
Kasihku
Parut-parut luka
Di pinggir hatiku
Yang terasa sakitnya
Pabila tersentuh
Untuk Satu Malam
This is for 'a one night stand'
Semalam
untuk satu malam
bukan ubat penghilang
sebuah cinta terpendam
semalam
untuk satu malam
bukan pelepas api kehangatan
secebis bara keemasan
semalam
untuk satu malam
relaku seribu seksaan
demi sebuah pegangan
Semalam
untuk satu malam
bukan ubat penghilang
sebuah cinta terpendam
semalam
untuk satu malam
bukan pelepas api kehangatan
secebis bara keemasan
semalam
untuk satu malam
relaku seribu seksaan
demi sebuah pegangan
Glory
Celebrate this glory
Worlds brought to a meaning
Of love and affection
Gracious, merciful
Stood by our sides
Our deeds as we please
The little help and protection
We neglected to seek
Readily yielded us
the right of way
Such paths of them before
Full of grace
No wraths
Never went astray
Worlds brought to a meaning
Of love and affection
Gracious, merciful
Stood by our sides
Our deeds as we please
The little help and protection
We neglected to seek
Readily yielded us
the right of way
Such paths of them before
Full of grace
No wraths
Never went astray
Clueless Man
Kath's probably going to get mad reading this after tirelessly tried to convince me that it's not worth an anger. Well, I am just writing this to remember the man and what he had done. Kath convinced me successfully.
I am searching
for the man
who has no clue
what he’s gotten into
played with the curtains
messed with the hearts
swung the windows open
left the doors unlocked
I will search on
For the man
For that one heart
Hanged by the knob
I will find
That man
To tell him
what he’s done
I am searching
for the man
who has no clue
what he’s gotten into
played with the curtains
messed with the hearts
swung the windows open
left the doors unlocked
I will search on
For the man
For that one heart
Hanged by the knob
I will find
That man
To tell him
what he’s done
The Secret
The secret
Is safe
With me
The history
Is buried
Far beneath
Deep inside of me
The crave
Became silent cries
Of my humblest
Posture in prayers
Is safe
With me
The history
Is buried
Far beneath
Deep inside of me
The crave
Became silent cries
Of my humblest
Posture in prayers
Lost In Love
I guess if you are deeply in love, you find yourself lost. That's probably what lost in love meant. This is only for those who are having such experience. If you are not one of them, then you probably don't know what it is, and you might as well quit saying there is no such thing...by Air Supply
I realize the best part of love
is the thinnest slice
And it don’t count for much
But I’m not letting go
I believe there’s still much
to believe in
So lift your eyes
if you feel you can
Reach for a star
and I’ll show you a plan
I figured it out
What I needed
was someone to show me
You know you can’t fool me
I’ve been loving you too long
It started so easy
You want to carry on
Lost in love
and I don’t know much
Was I thinking aloud
and fell out of touch?
But I’m back on my feet
and eager to be what you wanted
So lift your eyes
if you feel you can
Reach for a star
and I’ll show you a plan
I figured it out
What I needed
was someone to show me
You know you can’t fool me
I’ve been loving you too long
It started so easy
You want to carry on
You know you cant fool me
I’ve been loving you too long
It started so easy
You want to carry on
Now I’m lost, lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
Now I’m lost, lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
Lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
Lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
I realize the best part of love
is the thinnest slice
And it don’t count for much
But I’m not letting go
I believe there’s still much
to believe in
So lift your eyes
if you feel you can
Reach for a star
and I’ll show you a plan
I figured it out
What I needed
was someone to show me
You know you can’t fool me
I’ve been loving you too long
It started so easy
You want to carry on
Lost in love
and I don’t know much
Was I thinking aloud
and fell out of touch?
But I’m back on my feet
and eager to be what you wanted
So lift your eyes
if you feel you can
Reach for a star
and I’ll show you a plan
I figured it out
What I needed
was someone to show me
You know you can’t fool me
I’ve been loving you too long
It started so easy
You want to carry on
You know you cant fool me
I’ve been loving you too long
It started so easy
You want to carry on
Now I’m lost, lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
Now I’m lost, lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
Lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
Lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
Color Blind
It was
A kind world
When man
Remained color blind
It is
A harsh world
When man
See colors
It is
A cruel world
When man
Draw boundaries
It will
Ruin the world
As man puts forth
Race
Beliefs
Features
It will
Save the world
If man are more human
Held by values
A kind world
When man
Remained color blind
It is
A harsh world
When man
See colors
It is
A cruel world
When man
Draw boundaries
It will
Ruin the world
As man puts forth
Race
Beliefs
Features
It will
Save the world
If man are more human
Held by values
Friday, December 19, 2008
Somewhere Within
Somewhere within
There has to be
One face smiling
One heart loving
Somewhere within
There’s got to be
Some hands holding
Some arms hugging
Somewhere within
There must have been
A friend watching
A lover seeing
There has to be
One face smiling
One heart loving
Somewhere within
There’s got to be
Some hands holding
Some arms hugging
Somewhere within
There must have been
A friend watching
A lover seeing
Words
Kathy once said to me, rather in a cold manner, say what you mean, mean what you say.
Words do carry weight.
Smile
an everlasting smile
a smile can bring
you near to me.
Don't ever
let me find you down
cause that would bring a tear
to me.
This world has lost its glory
lets start a brand new story now
my love
Right now
there'll be no other time
and I can show you how
my love.
Talk in everlasting words
and dedicate them all to me
And I will give you all my life
I'm here if you should call
to me
You think that I dont even mean
a single word I say.
Its only words
and words are all I have
to take your heart away
Words do carry weight.
Smile
an everlasting smile
a smile can bring
you near to me.
Don't ever
let me find you down
cause that would bring a tear
to me.
This world has lost its glory
lets start a brand new story now
my love
Right now
there'll be no other time
and I can show you how
my love.
Talk in everlasting words
and dedicate them all to me
And I will give you all my life
I'm here if you should call
to me
You think that I dont even mean
a single word I say.
Its only words
and words are all I have
to take your heart away
Sex
Kathy sort of blind copied me on her e-mail to our lady friends. The title of her e-mail was ‘Sex: Awet Muda…or something like that.
Well, as for me there are two things here. One, Kathy included me as she communicates with her friends. I am happy to be given that spot.
The second thing is sex.
Kath, I didn’t open the attachment.
(Sex could be very well meant make love.)
Well, as for me there are two things here. One, Kathy included me as she communicates with her friends. I am happy to be given that spot.
The second thing is sex.
Kath, I didn’t open the attachment.
(Sex could be very well meant make love.)
Senduk 2
Just where the hell is that Senduk?? why does it have to be a Senduk? Fuuuuudddggggeee!!!!!
It is friendship we are taking about here and it was establish when we were supposed to be pure and innocent. Now, it is all spoiled for the Senduk thing. It is also ironic that I still am thinking about it and I just cannot recover. God help, I just do not understand. I would hate her for doing that, in fact I hate her already. Well, she's being nice, sending me a message and asking me why I am no longer in the blog. She knew why, but she asked. Any person who got that badly humiliated in public will feel upset, certainly I am. But when she asked why, I gave her other reasons. I just will not show my sensitivity to her, I don't need to, but God, help me, I am so upset. It is not cooling down instead I am growing angrier and the distance between me and the group surely is widening by day.
Please, spare me no awards and don't call me upfront. I had enough, I do not need another humiliation.
Imagine now, if there'll be another re-union. The answer is clear, I am not going. I will not go to any re-unions anymore.
It is friendship we are taking about here and it was establish when we were supposed to be pure and innocent. Now, it is all spoiled for the Senduk thing. It is also ironic that I still am thinking about it and I just cannot recover. God help, I just do not understand. I would hate her for doing that, in fact I hate her already. Well, she's being nice, sending me a message and asking me why I am no longer in the blog. She knew why, but she asked. Any person who got that badly humiliated in public will feel upset, certainly I am. But when she asked why, I gave her other reasons. I just will not show my sensitivity to her, I don't need to, but God, help me, I am so upset. It is not cooling down instead I am growing angrier and the distance between me and the group surely is widening by day.
Please, spare me no awards and don't call me upfront. I had enough, I do not need another humiliation.
Imagine now, if there'll be another re-union. The answer is clear, I am not going. I will not go to any re-unions anymore.
Old Boys' Group
Right now I don’t feel like joining the Old Boys’ (and Gals’) Blog anymore…
I just somehow never understand why I have come back to the land I never belong to. What is it there still that I have to learn? Or is there other experience that I need to swim through? Or is it another form of punishment I have to take?
All that I am feeling right now is the exact same thing I was feeling back then. Just how would I elevate myself a little or at least be as happy as they are. I am still that sad kid. But why?
Fear?
Inferiority?
Can’t keep up?
Just don’t fit in?
But what was I thinking when I was growing up in that land?
One thing for sure, I wanna get the hell out of there as quick as possible. No wonder I never had no string attached there.
But surely I was not about to head home. Yea, maybe went overseas was the right thing, even though it was just being lucky.
And I remember, I never wanna come back. I came back for my parents. I never wanna get married too.
Wow! Have I not been doing things that I don’t want to
I just somehow never understand why I have come back to the land I never belong to. What is it there still that I have to learn? Or is there other experience that I need to swim through? Or is it another form of punishment I have to take?
All that I am feeling right now is the exact same thing I was feeling back then. Just how would I elevate myself a little or at least be as happy as they are. I am still that sad kid. But why?
Fear?
Inferiority?
Can’t keep up?
Just don’t fit in?
But what was I thinking when I was growing up in that land?
One thing for sure, I wanna get the hell out of there as quick as possible. No wonder I never had no string attached there.
But surely I was not about to head home. Yea, maybe went overseas was the right thing, even though it was just being lucky.
And I remember, I never wanna come back. I came back for my parents. I never wanna get married too.
Wow! Have I not been doing things that I don’t want to
Plain Man
I am a plain man
No music man
To sing you songs
Those sexy lips
And meaningful eyes
I am a plain man
No macho man
To show my body flexes
Those six packs tummy
And masculine biceps
I am a plain man
No stand up comedian
To make you laugh
No sense of humor
Not a cool guy
I am
A plain main
Unlike
Any other man
No music man
To sing you songs
Those sexy lips
And meaningful eyes
I am a plain man
No macho man
To show my body flexes
Those six packs tummy
And masculine biceps
I am a plain man
No stand up comedian
To make you laugh
No sense of humor
Not a cool guy
I am
A plain main
Unlike
Any other man
The Secret
Tender and warm
Silky smooth
I felt the breeze
As the moon scrutinizes
Into the night
Infatuated
Somewhere
Between the moon and the night
I saw your face
Looking on to me
In a dilemma
I hear your whispers
Soft and sweet
There is a secret
Drawn me to my feet
Open those doors
The curtain of time
So into your heart
Shall this love reside
It is blessed
Give me your hand
Look into my eyes
I beg you
Let this love reside
Silky smooth
I felt the breeze
As the moon scrutinizes
Into the night
Infatuated
Somewhere
Between the moon and the night
I saw your face
Looking on to me
In a dilemma
I hear your whispers
Soft and sweet
There is a secret
Drawn me to my feet
Open those doors
The curtain of time
So into your heart
Shall this love reside
It is blessed
Give me your hand
Look into my eyes
I beg you
Let this love reside
Saksi
Dulu
Kaunya bukti
Kini
Menjadi saksi
Sebutlah namanya
Satu tiada yang lain
Sebutlah namanya
Dia yang dikasihi
Bawalah kemana jua
Letaknya pada
Sekeping hati
Tersebut juga ia
Beralun-alun
Setiap denyutan nadi
Berpegang sekuatnya
Tiada goyah
Tiada sangsi
demi cinta
berjunjungan
batu jemala
Kaunya bukti
Kini
Menjadi saksi
Sebutlah namanya
Satu tiada yang lain
Sebutlah namanya
Dia yang dikasihi
Bawalah kemana jua
Letaknya pada
Sekeping hati
Tersebut juga ia
Beralun-alun
Setiap denyutan nadi
Berpegang sekuatnya
Tiada goyah
Tiada sangsi
demi cinta
berjunjungan
batu jemala
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Penumpang Kasih
Telah kuceritakan buatmu
Jalananku ini
Hidupku yang terumbang-ambing
Hanya menantikan hari
Bilaku sentuh tanganmu
Bersama lagu ini
Bisakah kau katakan
“Datanglah ke sisiku
Cintailah aku
Aku ada di sisimu”
Namun sayang
Usia mengejarku
Lagu-lagu kudendangkan
Bergema hanya di awanan
Beralun-alun ia berpusingan
Seumpama aku
Penumpang kasih
yang setia
Jalananku ini
Hidupku yang terumbang-ambing
Hanya menantikan hari
Bilaku sentuh tanganmu
Bersama lagu ini
Bisakah kau katakan
“Datanglah ke sisiku
Cintailah aku
Aku ada di sisimu”
Namun sayang
Usia mengejarku
Lagu-lagu kudendangkan
Bergema hanya di awanan
Beralun-alun ia berpusingan
Seumpama aku
Penumpang kasih
yang setia
I Just Called To Say I Love You
This another song that I could sing pretty well. You know, we can sometimes make reasons out to call a person. Ironically, we tend to hide the prettiest intention, just to tell a person that you love her. As a result, we find emptiness in our lives just because we didn't tell the person we love that we love her..So, if you have love, do yourself a favour, pick up the phone and let the person know. Love makes life worth living. Here's what Stevie Wonders said:
No new year’s day
To celebrate
No chocolate covered candy hearts to give away
No first of spring
No song to sing
In fact here’s just another ordinary day
No april rain
No flowers bloom
No wedding saturday within the month of june
But what it is
Is something true
Made up of these three words that I must say to you
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart
No summers high
No warm july
No harvest moon to light one tender august night
No autumn breeze
No falling leaves
No even time for birds to fly to southern skies
No libra sun
No halloween
No giving thanks to all the christmas joy you bring
But what it is
Though old so new
To fill your heart like no three words could ever do.
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart
Of my heart
Of my heart
No new year’s day
To celebrate
No chocolate covered candy hearts to give away
No first of spring
No song to sing
In fact here’s just another ordinary day
No april rain
No flowers bloom
No wedding saturday within the month of june
But what it is
Is something true
Made up of these three words that I must say to you
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart
No summers high
No warm july
No harvest moon to light one tender august night
No autumn breeze
No falling leaves
No even time for birds to fly to southern skies
No libra sun
No halloween
No giving thanks to all the christmas joy you bring
But what it is
Though old so new
To fill your heart like no three words could ever do.
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart
Of my heart
Of my heart
Polonia
Theme from a song Polonia, sang by Zubir Ali, a very close friend.
I made it somehow
To Polonia
Dropped in the arms
Of beautiful smiles
Soft hands
Took me with them
As a silent wanderer
Felt an ease
In my heart
My dreams came true
When we met
In Polonia
So many memories
So familiar
They converse poetically
These brothers and sisters
Of mine
That I told them
I’d come back
As a wanderer
Who misses them
I made it somehow
To Polonia
Dropped in the arms
Of beautiful smiles
Soft hands
Took me with them
As a silent wanderer
Felt an ease
In my heart
My dreams came true
When we met
In Polonia
So many memories
So familiar
They converse poetically
These brothers and sisters
Of mine
That I told them
I’d come back
As a wanderer
Who misses them
Puppy Love
I knew all along that the kids had been listening to this song over and over again. The three of them had even made it a must to play it first on top of other songs in the morning, as they enjoyed their first meals. To my surprise, one of the girls saved it into her mp4. As meaningful the song would be to you, it's the same to your dad, who is 44 now....so watch your steps please
And they called it puppy love
Oh I guess they'll never know
How a young heart really feels
And why I love her so
And they called it puppy love
Just because we're seventeen
Tell them all it isn't fair
To take away my only dream
I cry each night these tears for you
My tears are all in vain
Oh I'll hope and I'll pray that may be some day
You'll be back in my arms once again
Someone help me,help me please
Is the answer up above
How can I ever tell them
This is not a puppy love
Someone help me, help me please
Is the answer up above
How can I ever tell them
This is not a puppy love
And they called it puppy love
Oh I guess they'll never know
How a young heart really feels
And why I love her so
And they called it puppy love
Just because we're seventeen
Tell them all it isn't fair
To take away my only dream
I cry each night these tears for you
My tears are all in vain
Oh I'll hope and I'll pray that may be some day
You'll be back in my arms once again
Someone help me,help me please
Is the answer up above
How can I ever tell them
This is not a puppy love
Someone help me, help me please
Is the answer up above
How can I ever tell them
This is not a puppy love
Open Arms
This is the welcoming song...once upon a day, she made it here.
Lying beside you, here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you’re so sincere
How could our live be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you, with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you’ll see what your love means to me
Open arms
Living without you, living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
But now that you’ve come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay.
Lying beside you, here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you’re so sincere
How could our live be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you, with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you’ll see what your love means to me
Open arms
Living without you, living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
But now that you’ve come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay.
Mom's Hands
The day I took
Mom’s hands into mine
Was the day I submitted
Myself
Readily
Prepared
The day I took
Mom’s hands into mine
Was the day I received
Prayers
Blessing
Love
The day I kissed mom
On her cheeks and forehead
Was the day I surrendered
Myself
Today
Tomorrow
Or the next
Mom’s hands into mine
Was the day I submitted
Myself
Readily
Prepared
The day I took
Mom’s hands into mine
Was the day I received
Prayers
Blessing
Love
The day I kissed mom
On her cheeks and forehead
Was the day I surrendered
Myself
Today
Tomorrow
Or the next
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I can't write
of all other nights
tonight
i can't write
as if
i've been cut out
i've been shut out
of all other night
tonight
i'm so tired
as if my eyes
are already shut
tonight
i can't write
as if
i've been cut out
i've been shut out
of all other night
tonight
i'm so tired
as if my eyes
are already shut
Mountain Top
gonna make it
to the mountain top
just to shout
call on your name
it surely brings echoes
heard in the country side
throughout the city
such a beautiful face
such a great name
like an angel of my dreams
Indahnya namamu seindah wajahmu
Bagai bidadari di dalam mimpi
Indahnya namamu seindah wajahmu
Kaulah pilihan hati
Kalau ku dapat mengepul awam
Akan kupintal ku jadikan
Oh namamu ku tuliskan oh namamu
Pasti nanti
Tertulis namamu di kepulan awam
Kan jelas terlihat di seluruh maya
Indahnya namamu seindah wajahmu
Bagai bidadari di dalam mimpi
Indahnya namamu seindah wajahmu
Kaulah pilihan hati
to the mountain top
just to shout
call on your name
it surely brings echoes
heard in the country side
throughout the city
such a beautiful face
such a great name
like an angel of my dreams
Indahnya namamu seindah wajahmu
Bagai bidadari di dalam mimpi
Indahnya namamu seindah wajahmu
Kaulah pilihan hati
Kalau ku dapat mengepul awam
Akan kupintal ku jadikan
Oh namamu ku tuliskan oh namamu
Pasti nanti
Tertulis namamu di kepulan awam
Kan jelas terlihat di seluruh maya
Indahnya namamu seindah wajahmu
Bagai bidadari di dalam mimpi
Indahnya namamu seindah wajahmu
Kaulah pilihan hati
Merisik Khabar
This is Sudirman's song. I think it is a story of a love he kept secret about. The love seemed to be very strong and kept long. It was like he was only watching that person from a distance and only brave enough to be asking about her.
Terkapar-kapar ku kelemasan
Sakit dilambung ombak kerinduan
Di dalam tidur di dalam jaga
Diburu oleh mimpi yang serupa
Mengapa aku jadi tak menentu
Keranamu
Ku menyusuri jalan berliku
Membiarkan hari-hari berlalu
Tiada salam tiada pesan
Memaksa diri untuk melupakan
Namun wajahmu bermain di mata ku
Tiap waktu
Malam ku suram, siang ku kelam
Ku kegelisahan, mencari-cari
Kemana pergi, harga diri ini
Bertanyakan berita, merisik khabar
Mendengar cerita, melaluinya
Kau kuhampiri, tiap hari
Bersama luka dihati
Mengapa aku jadi tak menentu
Kerana mu...
Terkapar-kapar ku kelemasan
Sakit dilambung ombak kerinduan
Di dalam tidur di dalam jaga
Diburu oleh mimpi yang serupa
Mengapa aku jadi tak menentu
Keranamu
Ku menyusuri jalan berliku
Membiarkan hari-hari berlalu
Tiada salam tiada pesan
Memaksa diri untuk melupakan
Namun wajahmu bermain di mata ku
Tiap waktu
Malam ku suram, siang ku kelam
Ku kegelisahan, mencari-cari
Kemana pergi, harga diri ini
Bertanyakan berita, merisik khabar
Mendengar cerita, melaluinya
Kau kuhampiri, tiap hari
Bersama luka dihati
Mengapa aku jadi tak menentu
Kerana mu...
Salam Terakhir
This is one of Sudirman's last song I think. He may have felt something to be writing and singing this song. He'd probably knew better than any of us. There may be certain things that he could no longer reconcile. So, in this song, he sought for forgiveness and sent salam to all. I just can't write tonight..(might as well layan this song..after being labelled a 'gay')
Sampaikan salam buat semua
Salam terakhir salam teristimewa
Kepada kau yang tersayang
Pada teman yang ku kenang
Pemergian ku ini tak dirancang
Usah bertanya mengapa aku
Mengucap salam terakhir kepada mu
Kerna waktu berputaran
Bimbang tak berkesempatan
Melahirkan kerinduan terhadapmu
Demi sebuah kenyataan
Yang amat menyakitkan
Aku yang tidak berdaya
Hanya berserah padaNya
Salam akhir
Salam yang teristimewa
KepadaNya ku memohon keampunan
MelaluiNya ku beri kemaafan
Kepadamu
Andainya aku punya waktu
Masih ku ingin mengulangi semula
Saat indah bersama mu
Sayang tak berkesempatan
Abadikan saja salam ku di ingatan
Salam ku yang terakhir
Sampaikan salam buat semua
Salam terakhir salam teristimewa
Kepada kau yang tersayang
Pada teman yang ku kenang
Pemergian ku ini tak dirancang
Usah bertanya mengapa aku
Mengucap salam terakhir kepada mu
Kerna waktu berputaran
Bimbang tak berkesempatan
Melahirkan kerinduan terhadapmu
Demi sebuah kenyataan
Yang amat menyakitkan
Aku yang tidak berdaya
Hanya berserah padaNya
Salam akhir
Salam yang teristimewa
KepadaNya ku memohon keampunan
MelaluiNya ku beri kemaafan
Kepadamu
Andainya aku punya waktu
Masih ku ingin mengulangi semula
Saat indah bersama mu
Sayang tak berkesempatan
Abadikan saja salam ku di ingatan
Salam ku yang terakhir
Unwanted Love
Just for handing over
An unwanted love
I was stripped
Naked
Off my
Sincerity
Honesty
Dignity
Pride
Just for handing over
A humble love
I was asked to dig
Deep into the grounds
For a chest full of
History of failures
And losses
Humiliated
Off my face
And my name
An unwanted love
I was stripped
Naked
Off my
Sincerity
Honesty
Dignity
Pride
Just for handing over
A humble love
I was asked to dig
Deep into the grounds
For a chest full of
History of failures
And losses
Humiliated
Off my face
And my name
My Pen Name
It’s been a joke really to have a pen name like sisa fajar, for a man like me. I don’t know somehow the name seemed feminine to some people. When I first learnt to chat l named myself ‘stillasrock’. Same situation, at times I was mistaken for a woman.
Sisa Fajar is from my real name Aziz Jaafar. I decided to use sisa for 2 reasons. I’ve been wanting to take after my dad. He looked totally different from me and he was a cool man. He had plenty of friends too, and indeed he was a friendly man. Not to mention how good looking he was. He looks like a man from Turkey.
I choose the name sisa because somehow I thought during the creation of me the process may have screwed up somewhere that the remnants of unwanted genes were all collected and they assembled into me. I came out totally not looking like my brothers. I inherited traits of different sort from them.
Fajar is just Jaafar on the opposite. I looked at my dad as if he was the first light of the day. It brings about much pleasant to life itself. I really wanted to be like him but I just can’t. I have to be me that I am still searching for.
When my writing was first read by a few friends, one of them thought it was a woman’s. I had a poem publish in a few other blogs, a number of commentors thought I was a woman.
Until lately I was thought of as a gay. With due respect to the gay community, but I am not one of them. When asked for proof it seems like might as well you take as I am a gay. Even if we go to bed together, for a woman, and the end of it, you may claim me being bisexual.
It sounds like a joke. It is a joke but calling a person as such is not a real good joke.
Well, I’ve been called so many names anyways!
Sisa Fajar is from my real name Aziz Jaafar. I decided to use sisa for 2 reasons. I’ve been wanting to take after my dad. He looked totally different from me and he was a cool man. He had plenty of friends too, and indeed he was a friendly man. Not to mention how good looking he was. He looks like a man from Turkey.
I choose the name sisa because somehow I thought during the creation of me the process may have screwed up somewhere that the remnants of unwanted genes were all collected and they assembled into me. I came out totally not looking like my brothers. I inherited traits of different sort from them.
Fajar is just Jaafar on the opposite. I looked at my dad as if he was the first light of the day. It brings about much pleasant to life itself. I really wanted to be like him but I just can’t. I have to be me that I am still searching for.
When my writing was first read by a few friends, one of them thought it was a woman’s. I had a poem publish in a few other blogs, a number of commentors thought I was a woman.
Until lately I was thought of as a gay. With due respect to the gay community, but I am not one of them. When asked for proof it seems like might as well you take as I am a gay. Even if we go to bed together, for a woman, and the end of it, you may claim me being bisexual.
It sounds like a joke. It is a joke but calling a person as such is not a real good joke.
Well, I’ve been called so many names anyways!
Sarah Gets Well
Night after night it’s the same clinic, and the same wooden bench. I’ve been sitting next to her while she tries the best that she can to hide her nervousness. I knew she has been nervous every night we are there. It’s been a month by now.
So, I decided to console her. And I said.
God gave us sickness not for nothing. It’s a test. You are gaining something from it that only you and God know of. Not others. It’s like a secret. It’ll make you a stronger and a better person. I know you’ve been through a lot since you were very young. This is the same clinic I’ve been taking you to, for many years.
Just like when God tests you with sadness and sorrow, Sarah. (That’s her new name I decided to give her today). Changed from Puteri Masthura to Puteri Sarah.
She came out smiling as usual and told me that it’ll be quite sometime before she can stop seeing the doctor.
So, I decided to console her. And I said.
God gave us sickness not for nothing. It’s a test. You are gaining something from it that only you and God know of. Not others. It’s like a secret. It’ll make you a stronger and a better person. I know you’ve been through a lot since you were very young. This is the same clinic I’ve been taking you to, for many years.
Just like when God tests you with sadness and sorrow, Sarah. (That’s her new name I decided to give her today). Changed from Puteri Masthura to Puteri Sarah.
She came out smiling as usual and told me that it’ll be quite sometime before she can stop seeing the doctor.
Me And I
For one brief moment
I found me
Who’s always been
Beside me
For one brief moment
I discovered me
A gentle woman inside
A wise man within
For one brief moment
I caught a glimpse of me
A friend who never turns his back
A lover who never stabs
I have been this far
Only with me
The mom of me
The father of me
The brother of me
The sisters of me
I went that far
Just to discover me
I found me
Who’s always been
Beside me
For one brief moment
I discovered me
A gentle woman inside
A wise man within
For one brief moment
I caught a glimpse of me
A friend who never turns his back
A lover who never stabs
I have been this far
Only with me
The mom of me
The father of me
The brother of me
The sisters of me
I went that far
Just to discover me
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
My Heart Will Go On
How much I meant what I said....
every night in my dreams
I see you
I feel you
that is how I know
you go on
far across the the distance
and spaces between us
you have come to show
you go on
near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
and you're here in my heart
and my heart will go on and on
love can touch us one time
and last for a lifetime
and never let go till we're gone
love was when I loved you
on true time I hold you
in my life we'll always go on
near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
and you're here in my heart
and my heart will go on and on
you're here, there's nothing I fear
and I know that my heart will go on
we'll stay forever this way
you are safe in my heart
and my heart will go on and on
every night in my dreams
I see you
I feel you
that is how I know
you go on
far across the the distance
and spaces between us
you have come to show
you go on
near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
and you're here in my heart
and my heart will go on and on
love can touch us one time
and last for a lifetime
and never let go till we're gone
love was when I loved you
on true time I hold you
in my life we'll always go on
near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
and you're here in my heart
and my heart will go on and on
you're here, there's nothing I fear
and I know that my heart will go on
we'll stay forever this way
you are safe in my heart
and my heart will go on and on
Pengemis Cinta
Destined as such...
Aku
Pengemis cinta
Di jalanan
Bukanku meminta
Dari sesiapa saja
Aku
Pengemis cinta
Di panas terik
Tidakku buta
Ku kenali dia
Aku
Pengemis cinta
Di sebuah pesta
Pandang wajahku
Membawa duka
Aku
Pengemis cinta
Sepanjang usia
Takkan kupinta
Kuberi semata
Aku
Pengemis cinta
Hidupku mengemis
Kasih yang tiada
Ke akhir masa
Aku
Pengemis cinta
Di jalanan
Bukanku meminta
Dari sesiapa saja
Aku
Pengemis cinta
Di panas terik
Tidakku buta
Ku kenali dia
Aku
Pengemis cinta
Di sebuah pesta
Pandang wajahku
Membawa duka
Aku
Pengemis cinta
Sepanjang usia
Takkan kupinta
Kuberi semata
Aku
Pengemis cinta
Hidupku mengemis
Kasih yang tiada
Ke akhir masa
Tasik
Sometimes you just feel that your presence simply disrupt the lives of others..
Kudatangi ke tasik ini
Bening kejernihan air di sini
Tanpa kelocak damai sepi
Di situ kekayaan tak terperi
Di tanganku seketul batu
Temui di sungai di kampungku
Kusayangi ia serap ke kalbu
Kukucup ia cinta buatmu
Kulontar ketengah semahu hatiku
Ini buatmu cinta dariku
Bersama ia rindu tak berlalu
Hukumlah aku mengasihimu
Berdentum gugur batu di tengah
Mencemari daulat istana di bawah
Suasana damai tepianpun marah
Ketenangan di tasik jernihnya berubah
Gementar aku melutut mengalah
Ditolak diterjah segenap arah
Permaisuri bersantai kehilangan arah
Demi cinta kubertemu padah
Kudatangi ke tasik ini
Bening kejernihan air di sini
Tanpa kelocak damai sepi
Di situ kekayaan tak terperi
Di tanganku seketul batu
Temui di sungai di kampungku
Kusayangi ia serap ke kalbu
Kukucup ia cinta buatmu
Kulontar ketengah semahu hatiku
Ini buatmu cinta dariku
Bersama ia rindu tak berlalu
Hukumlah aku mengasihimu
Berdentum gugur batu di tengah
Mencemari daulat istana di bawah
Suasana damai tepianpun marah
Ketenangan di tasik jernihnya berubah
Gementar aku melutut mengalah
Ditolak diterjah segenap arah
Permaisuri bersantai kehilangan arah
Demi cinta kubertemu padah
Your Warmth
Want to dive in
Too deep into your heart
Just want to do it
To come to your soul
And take home
A painting of it
Want to be touched
By the warmth
Of your mercy
Want to feel it
The seeds of sincerity
Want to plant it
Your love brings light
To my darkened world
Buried safely in my soul
A blossomed flower in the garden
Never fall in autumn
Will never wither
Want to listen
To your every heart beat
To echo in mine
Want to adore you forever
To make you
A diamond in me
Too deep into your heart
Just want to do it
To come to your soul
And take home
A painting of it
Want to be touched
By the warmth
Of your mercy
Want to feel it
The seeds of sincerity
Want to plant it
Your love brings light
To my darkened world
Buried safely in my soul
A blossomed flower in the garden
Never fall in autumn
Will never wither
Want to listen
To your every heart beat
To echo in mine
Want to adore you forever
To make you
A diamond in me
Your Coldness
I wanted to sing this song so much in JB. This is about the only song that I am really good at. However, to catch my breath whenever I am singing has been a trouble these days. Yet, I think I can still pull it through. This is Mengapa Perpisahan Yang Kau Pinta by Flybaits.
Here’s something I wrote based on the theme of the song.
On that one instant
Your coldness touched my heart
I heard the sound of the rain
Singing a sad song
While amazement clusters on
As I looked far beyond
The vision of your face
My heart bleeds on and on
Brought me to a stand still
Listening to the words you’ve said
I gripped on tight to the memories
I read from them, sentence to sentence
As if I’ve been dreaming
My tears came running
Streaming to my chest
Imprint of you within
I hugged you ever lovingly
It’s not possible
I would never forget you
I would never let you go
My love
As long as I live
There would never be another you
But why
Would you want us apart?
Please always remember
There was a time long ago
A little kid watched you from far
Deep in the woods
He’s fallen for you
And still, from the woods
Still loving you
Here’s something I wrote based on the theme of the song.
On that one instant
Your coldness touched my heart
I heard the sound of the rain
Singing a sad song
While amazement clusters on
As I looked far beyond
The vision of your face
My heart bleeds on and on
Brought me to a stand still
Listening to the words you’ve said
I gripped on tight to the memories
I read from them, sentence to sentence
As if I’ve been dreaming
My tears came running
Streaming to my chest
Imprint of you within
I hugged you ever lovingly
It’s not possible
I would never forget you
I would never let you go
My love
As long as I live
There would never be another you
But why
Would you want us apart?
Please always remember
There was a time long ago
A little kid watched you from far
Deep in the woods
He’s fallen for you
And still, from the woods
Still loving you
Seeing Mom
After so many tears for one thing or another, I somehow made it to mom’s today. It was unplanned rather instinctive. I met her. We both went quite for a few minutes not knowing what really to say to one another. I looked at her. She just could not get any older that she already is. Spiritually mom is ever so strong and she got beads in her hands. I watched her from the other side of the room in her small house and I didn’t know if she was seeing me clearly. She might have bad eye sight but to my surprise later I learnt that her eye sight had improved a lot and she started sewing clothes for her other grand kids, other than the ones belonged to my family. Ah! What the heck I thought.
I broke the ice by telling her that I’ve been busy lately and that I’ve been traveling back and forth between here and KL. I knew she would snug my stories just like that but somehow she chose the other path to go softer on me. She must have thought I am such a fragile son. Well, thanks mom, I’d love you as much no matter what. The worse I would do is to stay as far as I can from your view so to keep your anger away.
Well, she asked me about B Antarabangsa thing and I told her that I was staying there just a week before the land slide took place. She was worried and told me not to stay if I ever go to KL again.
She spoke of her regrets over the RM6k I asked her many years ago when I was in the states. I needed that money just to finance my final semester to be able to bring home 2 bachelor’s degree, one a geology and another in economics. She had the money but she needed to use it for her Haj. I told her, its fine and it’s an old story. She sort of decided to bury the issue deep inside, and shed tears. I was telling to myself, mom, I’ve been crying a lot and I can’t cry anymore. So, please don’t cry.
She asked if I already ate, I said I already did. She made me no coffee, probably because she was too tired. I would not ask for one no matter how much I missed her coffee and her curry.
I decided to leave just before my sis in law dropped in.
I took a 50 bucks note from my pocket and put in her hands. Took her hands and kissed once, and I said, this one is for Raya Puasa, please forgive me, mom. I kissed again, and said this one is for Raja Haji, please forgive me mom.
I kissed both of her cheeks and her forehead.
She said that she’d would forgive me even if I never come. I asked if I can kiss her again, this time for next year’s, in advance. Neither of us laughed at the joke
Well, goodbye, mom……
I broke the ice by telling her that I’ve been busy lately and that I’ve been traveling back and forth between here and KL. I knew she would snug my stories just like that but somehow she chose the other path to go softer on me. She must have thought I am such a fragile son. Well, thanks mom, I’d love you as much no matter what. The worse I would do is to stay as far as I can from your view so to keep your anger away.
Well, she asked me about B Antarabangsa thing and I told her that I was staying there just a week before the land slide took place. She was worried and told me not to stay if I ever go to KL again.
She spoke of her regrets over the RM6k I asked her many years ago when I was in the states. I needed that money just to finance my final semester to be able to bring home 2 bachelor’s degree, one a geology and another in economics. She had the money but she needed to use it for her Haj. I told her, its fine and it’s an old story. She sort of decided to bury the issue deep inside, and shed tears. I was telling to myself, mom, I’ve been crying a lot and I can’t cry anymore. So, please don’t cry.
She asked if I already ate, I said I already did. She made me no coffee, probably because she was too tired. I would not ask for one no matter how much I missed her coffee and her curry.
I decided to leave just before my sis in law dropped in.
I took a 50 bucks note from my pocket and put in her hands. Took her hands and kissed once, and I said, this one is for Raya Puasa, please forgive me, mom. I kissed again, and said this one is for Raja Haji, please forgive me mom.
I kissed both of her cheeks and her forehead.
She said that she’d would forgive me even if I never come. I asked if I can kiss her again, this time for next year’s, in advance. Neither of us laughed at the joke
Well, goodbye, mom……
Monday, December 15, 2008
My Mom
Aziz, someone told me you know. We must take care of mom. Why? It is because a mom is a person’s source of wealth. By taking care of mom, you can grow rich. My brother told me this, many years back.
So he did what he wanted to do. He got so rich now. As a result, the rest of us took the consequences I dare not describe.
Well, finally mom opens her doors to me. Not to my family but to me. She sent me a message through my nephew to ask me to come over to take the ‘daging korban’.
I am frightened more than sad, actually. My experience has been, anytime I come back, it is only a remake of the same drama. I cannot take it anymore.
We stayed away during both festivals, so far. Here’s for you mom.
Mom
Even it’s hidden
You know it
That I’ll always love you
Mom
Even it’s a distance
You know it
That I’ll always miss you
Mom
Even it’s faraway
You know it
That you are always on my mind
Mom
You know it
Because I’d always
Kiss you
Hug you
When we met
Mom
You know it
Far too well
I told you I’d stay away
But not in my heart
Mom
I love you
So he did what he wanted to do. He got so rich now. As a result, the rest of us took the consequences I dare not describe.
Well, finally mom opens her doors to me. Not to my family but to me. She sent me a message through my nephew to ask me to come over to take the ‘daging korban’.
I am frightened more than sad, actually. My experience has been, anytime I come back, it is only a remake of the same drama. I cannot take it anymore.
We stayed away during both festivals, so far. Here’s for you mom.
Mom
Even it’s hidden
You know it
That I’ll always love you
Mom
Even it’s a distance
You know it
That I’ll always miss you
Mom
Even it’s faraway
You know it
That you are always on my mind
Mom
You know it
Because I’d always
Kiss you
Hug you
When we met
Mom
You know it
Far too well
I told you I’d stay away
But not in my heart
Mom
I love you
Senduk
During the JB gathering, I was among the 5 active people in the blogs called to come forward to receive a special gift. I was really touched by that. Plus, I mean I was included amongst friends like DJ, DZ and Pon. I mean these are really fun and cute guys you know and I must have been someone to be included with them. As far as I know, I wasn't that active and all I did was playing the role of a member of a blog. Always spare comment and bring your good humor out.
Well, I was touched because we were asked to open the present up front.
My jaw dropped. The present was a Senduk. I was touched more than touched and thank god, I was sitting.
I tried to ask the reason of the joke behind all that. I got answers, but maybe I didn't understand it.
I could have hurt her (Jipz) in the blog or something. Gee, I don't know.
I kind of sad, but it's okay. It was probably meant to be a joke. But I would not make a senduk as a present. I remembered the penyapu as a present once.
I want to retire from the blog for a moment. Afterall, I think no one will notice that because so many people are in it now, hot from the recent gathering.
Senduk...why senduk...it's sad to think!
I hope none of them ever read my blog..
Well, I was touched because we were asked to open the present up front.
My jaw dropped. The present was a Senduk. I was touched more than touched and thank god, I was sitting.
I tried to ask the reason of the joke behind all that. I got answers, but maybe I didn't understand it.
I could have hurt her (Jipz) in the blog or something. Gee, I don't know.
I kind of sad, but it's okay. It was probably meant to be a joke. But I would not make a senduk as a present. I remembered the penyapu as a present once.
I want to retire from the blog for a moment. Afterall, I think no one will notice that because so many people are in it now, hot from the recent gathering.
Senduk...why senduk...it's sad to think!
I hope none of them ever read my blog..
Libra
Just to add more to it, my daughter appeared beside me and said,” Dad, you are a Libra right? Wanna know what you are?”. Grinning, boy, I just could not help it but stopped and started to listen to her. She’s been sick, most of the time, my thoughts started running. Just felt like hugging her and I knew she will push me away and thought that I was acting weird. Well, kids, they just don’t know how much they are felt for.
She had 2 close calls. Twice. She was living on milk for 6 months and all the witty docs I went for had no idea what disease she’s suffering from. Of course, perhaps a RM10k would help. The second one was fighting for life on her bed in the hospital for viral fever that has no cure, again according to the doctors. But these guys didn’t explain much either. I was praying to God, take me, take my life instead. Take my life not hers. She made it, however.
They called you the lame one, dad.
(Yea, kid. I was and I am. Now don’t you grow up like your old man, okay. My thoughts sort of whispered into her ears. If it wasn’t for that, you should have gotten a descent room for you, poor thing. I’d never forgive myself for that, for sure)
Nice to everyone they meet
(Hmm, until life teaches you all the lessons you need to know, dear, my thoughts whisper again)
Their love is one of a kind
(Darling, tell me about it. I could not understand it myself)
Silly, fun and sweet
(Until you get cooked ‘well done’ and metamorphosed to your bones, then it’ll be the other way around, honey)
Have own unique appeal
(Did you ever know that people used me to scare their kids, like I am monster. I going for a hunch or a hump transplant. Life could have been better if I am ‘Shrek”)
Most caring person you will ever meet
(My business been a single sided transaction this far in my life and don’t ask me why cause you will never understand. I am glad you are not a Libra.)
She went on and on, and I listened to her, smiling and nodding my head. But most of all, I watched her. She’s a grown up now, a 19 year old. She’d get married one day. I hope she’ll find love, true love. I hope her marriage will be bonded by love, true love. Not sacrifices.
She had 2 close calls. Twice. She was living on milk for 6 months and all the witty docs I went for had no idea what disease she’s suffering from. Of course, perhaps a RM10k would help. The second one was fighting for life on her bed in the hospital for viral fever that has no cure, again according to the doctors. But these guys didn’t explain much either. I was praying to God, take me, take my life instead. Take my life not hers. She made it, however.
They called you the lame one, dad.
(Yea, kid. I was and I am. Now don’t you grow up like your old man, okay. My thoughts sort of whispered into her ears. If it wasn’t for that, you should have gotten a descent room for you, poor thing. I’d never forgive myself for that, for sure)
Nice to everyone they meet
(Hmm, until life teaches you all the lessons you need to know, dear, my thoughts whisper again)
Their love is one of a kind
(Darling, tell me about it. I could not understand it myself)
Silly, fun and sweet
(Until you get cooked ‘well done’ and metamorphosed to your bones, then it’ll be the other way around, honey)
Have own unique appeal
(Did you ever know that people used me to scare their kids, like I am monster. I going for a hunch or a hump transplant. Life could have been better if I am ‘Shrek”)
Most caring person you will ever meet
(My business been a single sided transaction this far in my life and don’t ask me why cause you will never understand. I am glad you are not a Libra.)
She went on and on, and I listened to her, smiling and nodding my head. But most of all, I watched her. She’s a grown up now, a 19 year old. She’d get married one day. I hope she’ll find love, true love. I hope her marriage will be bonded by love, true love. Not sacrifices.
The Day, The First
The day
I first held your hand
I was a free flown kite
To have guide
And direction
The day
I first touched your hand
I was a nestles bird
To have found
My favorite tree
The day
I first walked by your side
I was a lonesome traveler
Who made all the way
To his most beloved
The day
I first held your hand tight
Was the only day
My soul found rest
I first held your hand
I was a free flown kite
To have guide
And direction
The day
I first touched your hand
I was a nestles bird
To have found
My favorite tree
The day
I first walked by your side
I was a lonesome traveler
Who made all the way
To his most beloved
The day
I first held your hand tight
Was the only day
My soul found rest
Time and Destiny
Theme adapted from a song
I never knew why
there is sadness
In a corner of my heart
I am too weak
to chase it away
it bore open
the gateway of my soul
welcoming this longing for
leaving me restless
with these tears
touching on to this love
it's destined for you, with you
it’s what I asked for
nor what you want
it’s all God’s will
but why, you
in the name of time
love was wiped away
while it stood by you
all the time
it hurts in my chest
I took the suffer
it went all into silence
As I stood withstanding
The stab into my heart
Half dead I stood watching
My face in the mirror
The doors to my heart
Went closed
I have no strength
To move my legs
At this moment
Never thought it’ll be this way
We are apart, worlds apart
I never understand
This sorrow inside
To let you go
Just because
I still love you
losing my breath
to missing you
I never knew why
there is sadness
In a corner of my heart
I am too weak
to chase it away
it bore open
the gateway of my soul
welcoming this longing for
leaving me restless
with these tears
touching on to this love
it's destined for you, with you
it’s what I asked for
nor what you want
it’s all God’s will
but why, you
in the name of time
love was wiped away
while it stood by you
all the time
it hurts in my chest
I took the suffer
it went all into silence
As I stood withstanding
The stab into my heart
Half dead I stood watching
My face in the mirror
The doors to my heart
Went closed
I have no strength
To move my legs
At this moment
Never thought it’ll be this way
We are apart, worlds apart
I never understand
This sorrow inside
To let you go
Just because
I still love you
losing my breath
to missing you
Suicidal, Sympathy
I am a man
With love
Meant for you
Take my hand
Just a little more
Than a friend
Brewed for so long
It turned into wine
I wrote no songs
Never make it to the dance
I am a friend
With love
Just for you
Take it away
For sympathy
Of suicidal me
With love
Meant for you
Take my hand
Just a little more
Than a friend
Brewed for so long
It turned into wine
I wrote no songs
Never make it to the dance
I am a friend
With love
Just for you
Take it away
For sympathy
Of suicidal me
The Janda Baik Experience
I must admit I kind of hyped, counting days to the gathering day. I left early with the same expectations of a warm welcome. Well warm indeed. I traveled by bus on Thursday night and arrived in KL very early Friday morning. Perhaps it was fatigue from traveling that kind of lowered my previous excitement. I sms’ed a friend informing that I was already in KL but due to some other commitments he could not see me. So, along with other strangers and travelers around me, we hang out on the stairs of Pudu Raya hours and hours. Well, yourself being a stranger for a number of hours was fun, I mean really. You forgot who you are and what your name is, plus you do not even know how you look like. You are in a foreign land, no body cares about you. Great. Well, except perhaps if you grew tired and sweaty, you’d figured you need a bed and a good shower. I surrendered and finally check in into a cheap back packers hostel with a bed and a common shower. The door to the room came with no lock on it. It was a great deal for a RM50 price, and who could be asking for more. I don’t want to spoil myself, so that will do it.
I had an important meeting after that and managed to get some rest and a good shower. I was surprised to find European girls in the same bathroom but they are all fully attired, unlike me, half naked. Well, who cares.
Right after the meeting I continue that stranger thing. This time at the stairs of Maybank Tower. Found plenty of Vietnamese comrades there and a lost Siamese family. I became their good friends until their ride arrived. A Toyota Altis with Siamese plate number. Cool. I spent 7 hours on the stairs. Hurrah! This is my kind of Cuti-Cuti Malaysia. I walked from KLCC to Pudu Raya and who normally does that? The tourists, like me. And that is being positively positive for crying out loud.
I had no ride to get to JB until the very last minute. It all came about just when I started to feel that I might have been disrupting others’ plans with their families. So, the mood kind of got down even lower. I made it to JB finally.
It was a great experience. I learnt mostly about me and who I am. Friends have always been themselves and I’ve known them for long. I fit in just fine, but like always, I kind of move around when the conversation topics got stale and when I was more of a side liner. I needed time to be alone and they just wouldn’t let me. Jalil was there whenever I wanted to be alone, and he is pleasant enough to deal with that. I felt I am alone even if he is around. Great guy.
I did spread some virus there and spoiled someone’s mood. She is my ‘great’ someone. I felt so embarrassed and so bad. It was one thing that I learnt about me at the age of 44, and yet I figured it was never too late.
I gambled by driving out of JB at night and risked falling into gauges.
I got sick on the second day. That ‘great’ someone came to take a look and she gave me some medicine.
So, the trip was a third enjoyable to me. The rest two thirds was not good at all because I spoiled someone else’s plus I got sick.
I took a ride home immediately after that with a sore in my heart and embarrassment all over my face.
Today, it was kind of scary looking at the school blog. Even looking at my email frightens me. I don’t know why. There’s so much of truth within…
I had an important meeting after that and managed to get some rest and a good shower. I was surprised to find European girls in the same bathroom but they are all fully attired, unlike me, half naked. Well, who cares.
Right after the meeting I continue that stranger thing. This time at the stairs of Maybank Tower. Found plenty of Vietnamese comrades there and a lost Siamese family. I became their good friends until their ride arrived. A Toyota Altis with Siamese plate number. Cool. I spent 7 hours on the stairs. Hurrah! This is my kind of Cuti-Cuti Malaysia. I walked from KLCC to Pudu Raya and who normally does that? The tourists, like me. And that is being positively positive for crying out loud.
I had no ride to get to JB until the very last minute. It all came about just when I started to feel that I might have been disrupting others’ plans with their families. So, the mood kind of got down even lower. I made it to JB finally.
It was a great experience. I learnt mostly about me and who I am. Friends have always been themselves and I’ve known them for long. I fit in just fine, but like always, I kind of move around when the conversation topics got stale and when I was more of a side liner. I needed time to be alone and they just wouldn’t let me. Jalil was there whenever I wanted to be alone, and he is pleasant enough to deal with that. I felt I am alone even if he is around. Great guy.
I did spread some virus there and spoiled someone’s mood. She is my ‘great’ someone. I felt so embarrassed and so bad. It was one thing that I learnt about me at the age of 44, and yet I figured it was never too late.
I gambled by driving out of JB at night and risked falling into gauges.
I got sick on the second day. That ‘great’ someone came to take a look and she gave me some medicine.
So, the trip was a third enjoyable to me. The rest two thirds was not good at all because I spoiled someone else’s plus I got sick.
I took a ride home immediately after that with a sore in my heart and embarrassment all over my face.
Today, it was kind of scary looking at the school blog. Even looking at my email frightens me. I don’t know why. There’s so much of truth within…
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
The End
Lord
Where would this long journey
Come to an end
When would this entire quest
Come to a halt
Or would it matter
As much to whom I am
As much to what I’ve been
Lord
I bare open my whole self
To the tinniest ego of manhood
I submit me to whom it belongs
Take me in
Listen to my prayers
Lord
I heed strength from your Might
To say it doesn’t matter
If I fall, should I stand
For all that I have done
To the best that I could
As sincere
As honest
As truthful
As my heart sought
As my soul asked for
As truly as I felt
On the day she would send me
Running the street
Seeking refuge
Hating myself
Weeping in my own shadows
For there is no fault
No guilt of hers
Nor do mine for loving
Where would this long journey
Come to an end
When would this entire quest
Come to a halt
Or would it matter
As much to whom I am
As much to what I’ve been
Lord
I bare open my whole self
To the tinniest ego of manhood
I submit me to whom it belongs
Take me in
Listen to my prayers
Lord
I heed strength from your Might
To say it doesn’t matter
If I fall, should I stand
For all that I have done
To the best that I could
As sincere
As honest
As truthful
As my heart sought
As my soul asked for
As truly as I felt
On the day she would send me
Running the street
Seeking refuge
Hating myself
Weeping in my own shadows
For there is no fault
No guilt of hers
Nor do mine for loving
Actor
I am an actor
Watch me
Watch my play
What I meant
I am an actor
Listen to me
What I say
What I meant
I am an actor
watch my eyes
there is you
Where beauty lies
Watch me
Watch my play
What I meant
I am an actor
Listen to me
What I say
What I meant
I am an actor
watch my eyes
there is you
Where beauty lies
Dreams
It’s a dream
But you feel it
From within
Touches your heart
to your skin
It’s a dream
But you feel it
From within
in your blood
love runs streaming
it’s a dream
you deny it
not your within
it’s for love
the heart is pumping
making our lives
worth living
But you feel it
From within
Touches your heart
to your skin
It’s a dream
But you feel it
From within
in your blood
love runs streaming
it’s a dream
you deny it
not your within
it’s for love
the heart is pumping
making our lives
worth living
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Aisya
The first night
I heard of Aisya
Her voice was so sweet
her momma called her sayang
I wasn’t there
When she was born
Didn’t make the honor
To be called her father
It would be the same
If I were to give a name
One of those who made fame
Kathy’s also one of them
She’ll take after her momma's feminine
Outwit man, outplay in games
She’s a learnt, exertive in influence
Comfort and love of a man’s dreams
I heard of Aisya
Her voice was so sweet
her momma called her sayang
I wasn’t there
When she was born
Didn’t make the honor
To be called her father
It would be the same
If I were to give a name
One of those who made fame
Kathy’s also one of them
She’ll take after her momma's feminine
Outwit man, outplay in games
She’s a learnt, exertive in influence
Comfort and love of a man’s dreams
The Highest Peak
Like I said
From the spot
You placed me in
Is the highest peak
On earth
The heavens so near
I never have to shout
The height brings no fear
Silent cries never went loud
I am near enough
To love you
A little far
To miss you
Never too distant
To hug you
Not quite close
To kiss you
From the spot
You placed me in
Made me the happiest
Man living
From the spot
You placed me in
Is the highest peak
On earth
The heavens so near
I never have to shout
The height brings no fear
Silent cries never went loud
I am near enough
To love you
A little far
To miss you
Never too distant
To hug you
Not quite close
To kiss you
From the spot
You placed me in
Made me the happiest
Man living
Monday, December 8, 2008
For You
Gasping for air
I am drowning
These restless seas
Of missing you
Haunted by similar dreams
Night and day
I have been me
For you
I walked the strangest paths
Letting the days passed by
There‘s no news of you
Nothing you left behind for me
But your face
And you smile
Are there in my eyes
Every moment
Quiet, starless nights
Dimming days
I’ve been wandering
Tirelessly
Searching for the news
The slightest sight of you
And through it all
Was the nearest I got to you
Every day
With my heart
Bleeding all over
For you
I am drowning
These restless seas
Of missing you
Haunted by similar dreams
Night and day
I have been me
For you
I walked the strangest paths
Letting the days passed by
There‘s no news of you
Nothing you left behind for me
But your face
And you smile
Are there in my eyes
Every moment
Quiet, starless nights
Dimming days
I’ve been wandering
Tirelessly
Searching for the news
The slightest sight of you
And through it all
Was the nearest I got to you
Every day
With my heart
Bleeding all over
For you
One Love
One love
That’s there
It’ll just grow
Gets stronger
One love
That’s there
It’ll just stay
Gets steadier
One love
That’s there
It’ll just crystallize
Gets heavier
One love
If it’s there
It’s meant to be there
Not just anywhere
That’s there
It’ll just grow
Gets stronger
One love
That’s there
It’ll just stay
Gets steadier
One love
That’s there
It’ll just crystallize
Gets heavier
One love
If it’s there
It’s meant to be there
Not just anywhere
Have You Ever
Have you ever
Liked someone
To the point
You’ve forgotten
How do you
Really look like?
Have you ever
Loved someone
To the point
You’ve forgotten
Whose life
You’re breathing on?
Have you ever
Missed someone
To the point
You fell in too deep
And lost
into her heart?
Have you ever
Cared for someone
To the point
You’d lay your hands
For her to step on
On the ground?
Liked someone
To the point
You’ve forgotten
How do you
Really look like?
Have you ever
Loved someone
To the point
You’ve forgotten
Whose life
You’re breathing on?
Have you ever
Missed someone
To the point
You fell in too deep
And lost
into her heart?
Have you ever
Cared for someone
To the point
You’d lay your hands
For her to step on
On the ground?
Rindu Yang Panjang
Aku tak mampu
Menulis lagi
Berbahasa puisi
Kerana tak tertahan lagi
Sehari kesepian
rindu yang panjang
aku tak kuasa
menyanyi lagi
berdendang syair
kerana keletihan kini
sehari kesunyian
suara yang hilang
aku hanya bisa
berdiri sendiri
berbekal satu wajah
tangan yang kugenggam
jiwa yang kudakap
dan aku mahu hidup
seribu tahun lagi
demi cinta yang tak sudah
demi rindu tak tertadah
ianya cukup bagiku
teramat indah
Menulis lagi
Berbahasa puisi
Kerana tak tertahan lagi
Sehari kesepian
rindu yang panjang
aku tak kuasa
menyanyi lagi
berdendang syair
kerana keletihan kini
sehari kesunyian
suara yang hilang
aku hanya bisa
berdiri sendiri
berbekal satu wajah
tangan yang kugenggam
jiwa yang kudakap
dan aku mahu hidup
seribu tahun lagi
demi cinta yang tak sudah
demi rindu tak tertadah
ianya cukup bagiku
teramat indah
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Pengorbanan
Bagaikan kertas putih ini
tulus hati seorang ayah
Meletakkan tubuh kecil anaknya
Bersendengkan batu
Demi sebuah perintah
Bagaikan kertas putih ini
taat hati seorang anak
Merelakan yang dipinta
Rela berserah nyawa
Demi menjunjung perintah
Diuji benarkah kamu?
Yang tulus dan taat hatinya
Korban dan berkorbanlah
Di hari dugaan terulung
Hari pengorbanan
Teganya hati ayah
Tunduk pada yang esa
Redhanya hati kecil anak
Hanya pinta ditutup wajah
Hari itu hari kemuncak
Penghuni kamar redha
Mereka yang terpuji
Yang tunduk bukan pada janji
Agungnya cinta
Dalam bersahaja
Lalu menyerah segala
tulus hati seorang ayah
Meletakkan tubuh kecil anaknya
Bersendengkan batu
Demi sebuah perintah
Bagaikan kertas putih ini
taat hati seorang anak
Merelakan yang dipinta
Rela berserah nyawa
Demi menjunjung perintah
Diuji benarkah kamu?
Yang tulus dan taat hatinya
Korban dan berkorbanlah
Di hari dugaan terulung
Hari pengorbanan
Teganya hati ayah
Tunduk pada yang esa
Redhanya hati kecil anak
Hanya pinta ditutup wajah
Hari itu hari kemuncak
Penghuni kamar redha
Mereka yang terpuji
Yang tunduk bukan pada janji
Agungnya cinta
Dalam bersahaja
Lalu menyerah segala
Sentiasa
Penulisan di bawah berpandukan tema sebuah lagu
Lela terluka
Darahnya tidak kelihatan
Perasaan semata
Dan hati menyentak
Bila hujan datang lagi
Sejak kau pergi
Meninggalkan aku kelemasan
Kau tahu kesatriaku
Tanpamu aku tewas
Tak dapat lagi kunyanyikan
Lagu-lagu cinta
Sebagaimana harus ia
Memberi makna
Aku tidak bisa lagi
Tapi sayang
Itu hanyalah aku
Dan aku cintakan mu
Sentiasa
Dan aku di sisimu
Sentiasa
Aku di sisimu
Hingga bintang hilang sinarannya
Hingga musnah syurgawi
Dan kata-kata hilang madahnya
Dan ke akhir hidupku
Kau tetap di ingatan
Dan aku cintakanmu
Sentiasa
Wajahmu
Yang terpahat diingatanku
Bagaikan memori
Hidup yang kulalui
Membawakan tertawa
Membawakan airmata
Tak dapat kita tinggalkan
Apa lagi harusku lakukan
Untukku belai rambutmu
Sentuh bibirmu
Dan dakapimu serat-erat hati
Dan saat-saat kau berdoa
Fahamilah
Aku bersalah
Aku hanya seorang insan
Dan ketika kau dalam pelukan
Dengarlah kata-kata itu
Andai itu yang kau perlukan
Aku mahu saja menjadi dia
Kerana itu semua adalah kalamku
Untukku katakan buatmu
Hingga ke akhir masa
Bahkan sayang
Aku mencintaimu
Sentiasa
Aku di sisimu
Sentiasa
Biarku tangis untukmu
Aku bisa
Biarku mati untukmu
Aku bisa
Lihatlah di wajahku ini
Tiada harga tak terbayar demimu
Untukku katakan padamu
Dan bukanlah ia
sebuah ketentuan nasib
Atau satu perjudian
Lela terluka
Darahnya tidak kelihatan
Perasaan semata
Dan hati menyentak
Bila hujan datang lagi
Sejak kau pergi
Meninggalkan aku kelemasan
Kau tahu kesatriaku
Tanpamu aku tewas
Tak dapat lagi kunyanyikan
Lagu-lagu cinta
Sebagaimana harus ia
Memberi makna
Aku tidak bisa lagi
Tapi sayang
Itu hanyalah aku
Dan aku cintakan mu
Sentiasa
Dan aku di sisimu
Sentiasa
Aku di sisimu
Hingga bintang hilang sinarannya
Hingga musnah syurgawi
Dan kata-kata hilang madahnya
Dan ke akhir hidupku
Kau tetap di ingatan
Dan aku cintakanmu
Sentiasa
Wajahmu
Yang terpahat diingatanku
Bagaikan memori
Hidup yang kulalui
Membawakan tertawa
Membawakan airmata
Tak dapat kita tinggalkan
Apa lagi harusku lakukan
Untukku belai rambutmu
Sentuh bibirmu
Dan dakapimu serat-erat hati
Dan saat-saat kau berdoa
Fahamilah
Aku bersalah
Aku hanya seorang insan
Dan ketika kau dalam pelukan
Dengarlah kata-kata itu
Andai itu yang kau perlukan
Aku mahu saja menjadi dia
Kerana itu semua adalah kalamku
Untukku katakan buatmu
Hingga ke akhir masa
Bahkan sayang
Aku mencintaimu
Sentiasa
Aku di sisimu
Sentiasa
Biarku tangis untukmu
Aku bisa
Biarku mati untukmu
Aku bisa
Lihatlah di wajahku ini
Tiada harga tak terbayar demimu
Untukku katakan padamu
Dan bukanlah ia
sebuah ketentuan nasib
Atau satu perjudian
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Unreachable But Within Touch
Just when the news of Bukit Antarabangsa landslide broke.....
Vacation! You went away
It would be unreachable
But it just doesn’t say
You are untouchable
It may be an incident
Some news to be broken
Not only important, you are significant
Listen from me, what I have spoken
Unreachable
But you are always in touch
It’s a phone call away
But a distant apart
You’d somehow find your way
To get as near as within touch
Who would just walk on by
Without falling apart
Who’ll just wave on bye-bye
The heart won’t just depart
Vacation! You went away
It would be unreachable
But it just doesn’t say
You are untouchable
It may be an incident
Some news to be broken
Not only important, you are significant
Listen from me, what I have spoken
Unreachable
But you are always in touch
It’s a phone call away
But a distant apart
You’d somehow find your way
To get as near as within touch
Who would just walk on by
Without falling apart
Who’ll just wave on bye-bye
The heart won’t just depart
Friday, December 5, 2008
When Your World Turns Upside Down
I couldn't explain it all, just how some things could knock you out of senses and suddenly your world appeared to be upside down.
When your world turns upside down
You’d learn of love
indefinite, boundless
and its craziest dreams
When your world turns upside down
You’d learn of a bond
endlessly stretchable
With a knotless tie
When your world turns upside down
You’d learn of me
Mirror imaging
unbelievably it's you
When your world turns upside down
You’d learn of yourself
undeniably true
a beauty you never knew
When your world turns upside down
You’d learn of love
indefinite, boundless
and its craziest dreams
When your world turns upside down
You’d learn of a bond
endlessly stretchable
With a knotless tie
When your world turns upside down
You’d learn of me
Mirror imaging
unbelievably it's you
When your world turns upside down
You’d learn of yourself
undeniably true
a beauty you never knew
Number 3
I just want to let my thoughts run wild on ‘number 3’. It is simply because I didn’t remember that it was the number of my football jersey I used to wear when I was in school. Just forgot. Not in my entire life after that had I ever chosen that number. It’s not a number of my choice. Yet, with that number I made name in football and I actually made it to the national level. I should have played for the state soon after and had potentials of earning a living from the game, not having to go to school. However, I followed what my headmaster wanted me to do, pursued education instead. Well number 3 brought me some luck in a way but the number is still not a number that I like. I don’t really know why I am doing this.
Number 3 is not complete. It is like an image of an object but the object is not there. It is beyond logic to say that it is an image and an object at the same or sort of 2 in 1 kind of situation. If it so, well number 3 can be a ‘hell’ of a number. And in that circumstance, it is weird, really weird.
Number 3 is symmetrical. This is a good one I think. It shows that a person who is true in his words and deeds. His external crudely reflects his internal. This is nice. I think it is cool in a way that this number brings transparency. After all I think being transparent is fair to everyone, including ourselves
Number 3 has no match or having to wait for a match and being religiously loyal towards the match. I think that the match for number 3 is an opposite 3. This is another person who is actually the object of the image. The match will serve as reflection of one another. Both of them are just similar to one another, only that they are opposites, like you are watching yourself in the mirror, the image is you, but laterally inverted. This is great, I think. So, if both comes together, hey, watch out world, I mean they will reach peaks. I mean peaks. One will make another stronger and vice versa. This kind of bond is made naturally like they are both born to be like that. How’s that?
Three is a crowd, so one person will have to always play the role of ‘just sticking around’.
Well, I just wonder if I am being number 3. Have I just met my opposite 3?
Number 3 is not complete. It is like an image of an object but the object is not there. It is beyond logic to say that it is an image and an object at the same or sort of 2 in 1 kind of situation. If it so, well number 3 can be a ‘hell’ of a number. And in that circumstance, it is weird, really weird.
Number 3 is symmetrical. This is a good one I think. It shows that a person who is true in his words and deeds. His external crudely reflects his internal. This is nice. I think it is cool in a way that this number brings transparency. After all I think being transparent is fair to everyone, including ourselves
Number 3 has no match or having to wait for a match and being religiously loyal towards the match. I think that the match for number 3 is an opposite 3. This is another person who is actually the object of the image. The match will serve as reflection of one another. Both of them are just similar to one another, only that they are opposites, like you are watching yourself in the mirror, the image is you, but laterally inverted. This is great, I think. So, if both comes together, hey, watch out world, I mean they will reach peaks. I mean peaks. One will make another stronger and vice versa. This kind of bond is made naturally like they are both born to be like that. How’s that?
Three is a crowd, so one person will have to always play the role of ‘just sticking around’.
Well, I just wonder if I am being number 3. Have I just met my opposite 3?
Beauty And The Beast
If something is true, it is beautiful. Truth is beauty. Both can be pleasing and hurting at the same time. And it sometimes takes a tale to describe certain things, simply because that is the only way to fully paint the picture of the subject matter so the listener get a better view. Therefore to describe something beautiful, people can snug it off easily by saying ah! fairy tale.
So, truth and beauty in this song started off with a collision. Simply because in real life portrayal, they are absolute opposites, but in essence, they need no compromise because they are simply the same.
Blending in, is one process not an occurance. Truth, like Beauty cannot be denied, it is simply certain.
Beauty and The Beast by Celine Dion
Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Than somebody bends
Unexpectedly
Just a little change
Small, to say the least
Both a little scared
Neither one prepared
Beauty and the Beast
Ever just the same
Ever a surprise
Ever as before
Ever just as sure
As the sun will arise
Tale as old as time
Tune as old as song
Bittersweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong
Certain as the sun
Rising in the east
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the beast
So, truth and beauty in this song started off with a collision. Simply because in real life portrayal, they are absolute opposites, but in essence, they need no compromise because they are simply the same.
Blending in, is one process not an occurance. Truth, like Beauty cannot be denied, it is simply certain.
Beauty and The Beast by Celine Dion
Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Than somebody bends
Unexpectedly
Just a little change
Small, to say the least
Both a little scared
Neither one prepared
Beauty and the Beast
Ever just the same
Ever a surprise
Ever as before
Ever just as sure
As the sun will arise
Tale as old as time
Tune as old as song
Bittersweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong
Certain as the sun
Rising in the east
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the beast
Something About The Way You Look Tonight
(Just when you thought you saw someone at a dinner)
A song by Elton John
There was a time
I was everything
And nothing
All in one
When you found me
I was feeling like a cloud
Across the sun
I need to tell you
How you light up
Every second of the day
But in the moon light
You just shine
Like a beacon on the bay
And I can’t explain
But it’s something about they way
You look tonight
Takes my breath away
It’s that feeling
I get about you
Deep inside
And I can’t describe
But it’s something about the way
You look tonight
Takes my breath away
The way you look tonight
With a smile
You pull the deepest secrets
from my heart
in all honesty
I’m speechless
And don’t know where to start
And I can’t explain
But it’s something about they way
You look tonight
Takes my breath away
It’s that feeling
I get about you
Deep inside
And I can’t describe
But it’s something about the way
You look tonight
Takes my breath away
The way you look tonight
A song by Elton John
There was a time
I was everything
And nothing
All in one
When you found me
I was feeling like a cloud
Across the sun
I need to tell you
How you light up
Every second of the day
But in the moon light
You just shine
Like a beacon on the bay
And I can’t explain
But it’s something about they way
You look tonight
Takes my breath away
It’s that feeling
I get about you
Deep inside
And I can’t describe
But it’s something about the way
You look tonight
Takes my breath away
The way you look tonight
With a smile
You pull the deepest secrets
from my heart
in all honesty
I’m speechless
And don’t know where to start
And I can’t explain
But it’s something about they way
You look tonight
Takes my breath away
It’s that feeling
I get about you
Deep inside
And I can’t describe
But it’s something about the way
You look tonight
Takes my breath away
The way you look tonight
The Highest Spot In Heaven
(What I wrote just occured to me during Friday's prayers, today)
Lord
If you allow me
For just one wish of all
Listen to me
As I sound the softest I can
And plea before you
Bounce me back no echo
Laying flat, facing down
To the ground
Where I came from
Lord
Of them all I’ve met
Those hands that I’ve touched
All regards that I said so warm
But there’s one
Whom I’d never said hello to
How silly that I’d forgotten
To shake her hands
Yet, my lord
Through some eyes
I was seen
Through some ears
I was listened to
Through some thoughts
My words made a little sense
And through that one heart
I lay down the pain
Above all, my lord
For probing deep into my soul
For exploring into my hectic minds
For I have never been
Ever concerned by
Ever looked after
So microscopically
Grant her, my lord
The highest spot
In heaven
Lord
If you allow me
For just one wish of all
Listen to me
As I sound the softest I can
And plea before you
Bounce me back no echo
Laying flat, facing down
To the ground
Where I came from
Lord
Of them all I’ve met
Those hands that I’ve touched
All regards that I said so warm
But there’s one
Whom I’d never said hello to
How silly that I’d forgotten
To shake her hands
Yet, my lord
Through some eyes
I was seen
Through some ears
I was listened to
Through some thoughts
My words made a little sense
And through that one heart
I lay down the pain
Above all, my lord
For probing deep into my soul
For exploring into my hectic minds
For I have never been
Ever concerned by
Ever looked after
So microscopically
Grant her, my lord
The highest spot
In heaven
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
The Idiots and The Lake
One of us
Was so naïve
One of us
Was so fearful
Both of us
Are idiots
Simply dumb
Who has the cancer?
Who has the pain?
We went to the lake
Just to shout
And to sing
We tossed pebbles
In to the deep
Dark waters
Calm and still waters
Seemed listening
When it’s ripples
Washes our feet
Was so naïve
One of us
Was so fearful
Both of us
Are idiots
Simply dumb
Who has the cancer?
Who has the pain?
We went to the lake
Just to shout
And to sing
We tossed pebbles
In to the deep
Dark waters
Calm and still waters
Seemed listening
When it’s ripples
Washes our feet
The Idiots and The Lake
One of us
Was so naïve
One of us
Was so fearful
Both of us
Are idiots
Simply dumb
Who has the cancer?
Who has the pain?
We went to the lake
Just to shout
And to sing
We tossed pebbles
In to the deep
Dark waters
Calm and still waters
Seemed listening
When it’s ripples
Washes our feet
Was so naïve
One of us
Was so fearful
Both of us
Are idiots
Simply dumb
Who has the cancer?
Who has the pain?
We went to the lake
Just to shout
And to sing
We tossed pebbles
In to the deep
Dark waters
Calm and still waters
Seemed listening
When it’s ripples
Washes our feet
Ke Dalam Hidupku
Di atas permaidani yang pusam
Kurenungi kerdipnya lilin
Menghitung masa
Menunggumu
Ketika angin menderu
Suaranya menjerit-jerit
Malam bertambah kelam
Menunggumu
Bebola mata yang hitam
Senyum yang mengusik
Sepintas kau memasuki pintu ini
Ke dalam hidupku
Sudikah kau datang
Duduk di sebelahku
Buat secangkir minuman
Mengapa kiranya engkau dating
Setahu aku menunggumu
Dalam lesu keletihan
Kulihat gerak tari jemarimu
Tak dapatku hidupkan
Api di hatimu
Aku terus menunggumu
Dari masa ke semasa
Yang serasa terus membutai
Namun aku tetap ketinggalan
Masih banyak untukku curahkan
Menjengahlah engkau
Ke dalam hidupku
Suara menjeritku
Berdering di hatimu
Di celah-celah kesibukanmu
Namun kenapa aku terus sendirian
Menunggumu
Kujemputmu berarak ke mari
Begitukah mudah pesonanya?
Namun genggamanmu terus mengukuh
Aku menunggumu
Masih
Bebola mata yang hitam
Senyum yang mengusik
Sepintas kau memasuki pintu ini
Ke dalam hidupku
Kurenungi kerdipnya lilin
Menghitung masa
Menunggumu
Ketika angin menderu
Suaranya menjerit-jerit
Malam bertambah kelam
Menunggumu
Bebola mata yang hitam
Senyum yang mengusik
Sepintas kau memasuki pintu ini
Ke dalam hidupku
Sudikah kau datang
Duduk di sebelahku
Buat secangkir minuman
Mengapa kiranya engkau dating
Setahu aku menunggumu
Dalam lesu keletihan
Kulihat gerak tari jemarimu
Tak dapatku hidupkan
Api di hatimu
Aku terus menunggumu
Dari masa ke semasa
Yang serasa terus membutai
Namun aku tetap ketinggalan
Masih banyak untukku curahkan
Menjengahlah engkau
Ke dalam hidupku
Suara menjeritku
Berdering di hatimu
Di celah-celah kesibukanmu
Namun kenapa aku terus sendirian
Menunggumu
Kujemputmu berarak ke mari
Begitukah mudah pesonanya?
Namun genggamanmu terus mengukuh
Aku menunggumu
Masih
Bebola mata yang hitam
Senyum yang mengusik
Sepintas kau memasuki pintu ini
Ke dalam hidupku
Merry Christmas
Tonight
I bought my daughter
A Christmas tree
It was indeed
Her first Christmas tree
Her eyes went shining
Smiled happily
Felt she was lucky
To all our friends
Our Christian friends
It’s a joy we are sharing
We don’t know how
To decorate the tree
But surely enjoy
Such festivity
Merry Christmas
From another
Muslim family
I bought my daughter
A Christmas tree
It was indeed
Her first Christmas tree
Her eyes went shining
Smiled happily
Felt she was lucky
To all our friends
Our Christian friends
It’s a joy we are sharing
We don’t know how
To decorate the tree
But surely enjoy
Such festivity
Merry Christmas
From another
Muslim family
The Night
Oh Yea the night
Just when this longing for
Stabbed in deeper
You brought back today’s memories
Just how cruel you are
My love
Just when the night darkens
Flashes of our stories
Ran across my sight
And this night
It clutches me tight
Just when it falls
I looked back at last night
All these restlessness
Turned into flame
I could just reach for
That coldness in your heart
And night falls
It’s the time
For another deeper groove
To one lonesome me
And I drowned
Underneath the currents
Of the night
Oh Yea the night
If only we could converse
Tell me now
What has she gone to?
Taking my heart with her
Oh Why?
Oh Yea the night
Just when this longing for
Stabbed in deeper
You brought back today’s memories
Just how cruel you are
My love
Just when the night darkens
Flashes of our stories
Ran across my sight
And this night
It clutches me tight
Just when it falls
I looked back at last night
All these restlessness
Turned into flame
I could just reach for
That coldness in your heart
And night falls
It’s the time
For another deeper groove
To one lonesome me
And I drowned
Underneath the currents
Of the night
Oh Yea the night
If only we could converse
Tell me now
What has she gone to?
Taking my heart with her
Oh Why?
Oh Yea the night
Thank You
How could I express
My utmost gratitude
For this space
That I am let in
For this care
That I am sheltered in
For all the concerns
That my heart been hurting
For those hands
That I am holding
How could I say
Thank you
For the sacrifice
That brings you nothing
For the burden
That you deserve not a bit
For the suffer
That you take without reasoning
For the pain
That your heart just let in
For the tears
That comes as autumn rain
For the confusion
No matter how hard you been thinking
For taking this love
Out of nothing
What could I do
But embrace
My utmost gratitude
For this space
That I am let in
For this care
That I am sheltered in
For all the concerns
That my heart been hurting
For those hands
That I am holding
How could I say
Thank you
For the sacrifice
That brings you nothing
For the burden
That you deserve not a bit
For the suffer
That you take without reasoning
For the pain
That your heart just let in
For the tears
That comes as autumn rain
For the confusion
No matter how hard you been thinking
For taking this love
Out of nothing
What could I do
But embrace
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Hingga Akhir Nanti
Hingga akhir nanti
kau tetap jadi pujaan
walau seribu tahun
walau seribu zaman
kutetap menanti
Hingga akhir nanti
kau saja idaman hati
segala rasa cinta
segala rasa sayang
hanyalah untukmu
hingga akhir nanti
Bulan takkan terang
tanpa seri wajahmu
hati takkan tenang
tanpa kehadiranmu
rindu dalam sepi
rindu dalam mimpi
kutetap menanti
hingga akhir nanti
Datanglah kekasih
datanglah padaku
kesetiaan diriku
janganlah kau ragu
betapa kukasih
betapa kurindu
seandainya kau tahu
benarnya cintaku
kau tetap jadi pujaan
walau seribu tahun
walau seribu zaman
kutetap menanti
Hingga akhir nanti
kau saja idaman hati
segala rasa cinta
segala rasa sayang
hanyalah untukmu
hingga akhir nanti
Bulan takkan terang
tanpa seri wajahmu
hati takkan tenang
tanpa kehadiranmu
rindu dalam sepi
rindu dalam mimpi
kutetap menanti
hingga akhir nanti
Datanglah kekasih
datanglah padaku
kesetiaan diriku
janganlah kau ragu
betapa kukasih
betapa kurindu
seandainya kau tahu
benarnya cintaku
Tirai
angin malam
yang dingin ini
takkan sejukkan
panasnya di hati
lantaran aku yang dayus
tiada upaya mengekang sikapmu
demi kekurangan ini
aku terus dipermainkan
kalau bisa
mahu aku belikan
permaidani putih buatmu
kubentangkan di kamarmu
Jika ada dayaku
Mahu saja kuberi
Dulangan emas permata
Hantaran untukmu
Masa terus berlalu
aku tidak mampu
mengapa tega hati ini
terus saja mencintaimu
sedangku tahu benar
kau tak tersentuh olehku
mengapa terlupa aku
cerminkan wajah di kamar ibu
sebelum kau tampakkan dirimu
di celah-celah tirai itu
yang dingin ini
takkan sejukkan
panasnya di hati
lantaran aku yang dayus
tiada upaya mengekang sikapmu
demi kekurangan ini
aku terus dipermainkan
kalau bisa
mahu aku belikan
permaidani putih buatmu
kubentangkan di kamarmu
Jika ada dayaku
Mahu saja kuberi
Dulangan emas permata
Hantaran untukmu
Masa terus berlalu
aku tidak mampu
mengapa tega hati ini
terus saja mencintaimu
sedangku tahu benar
kau tak tersentuh olehku
mengapa terlupa aku
cerminkan wajah di kamar ibu
sebelum kau tampakkan dirimu
di celah-celah tirai itu
Sweet Lies
Tell me
Sweet little lies
Out from your lips
I’d believe in them
And I’d do
As you wish
Whisper me
Those beautiful lies
From your heavenly voice
I’d swallow them all
And I’d act
As you want me to
Show me
All that deceits
From your beautiful expressions
I’d take them
And I’d dance
As you’d like me to
Tell me, tell me
Sweet little lies
To keep my shoes away
From your reddest carpet
To keep my sod away
From your greenest lawn
Sweet little lies
Out from your lips
I’d believe in them
And I’d do
As you wish
Whisper me
Those beautiful lies
From your heavenly voice
I’d swallow them all
And I’d act
As you want me to
Show me
All that deceits
From your beautiful expressions
I’d take them
And I’d dance
As you’d like me to
Tell me, tell me
Sweet little lies
To keep my shoes away
From your reddest carpet
To keep my sod away
From your greenest lawn
Not Meant To Be
It’s not meant to be
No matter
How hard I tried
How much I asked
How much I sacrificed
How much I cried for
How true I’ve been
How much I begged
It’s just
Not meant to be
So I’d figure I'd keep
This secret
This dream
This wish
This quest
This pain
This urge
This burden
Keep this love
It’s not meant to be
Therefore I’d name myself
A dreamer
A born loser
An outcast
No matter
How hard I tried
How much I asked
How much I sacrificed
How much I cried for
How true I’ve been
How much I begged
It’s just
Not meant to be
So I’d figure I'd keep
This secret
This dream
This wish
This quest
This pain
This urge
This burden
Keep this love
It’s not meant to be
Therefore I’d name myself
A dreamer
A born loser
An outcast
Joke
I Started A Joke
I started a joke
which started the whole world crying
but I didn't see
that the joke was on me
oh no
I started to cry
which started the whole world laughing
Oh, if I'd only seen
that the joke was on me
I looked at the skies
running my hands
over my eyes
and I fell out of bed
hurting my head
from things that I'd said
Till I finally died
which started the whole world living
Oh, if I'd only seen
that the joke was on me
I looked at the skies
running my hands
over my eyes
and I fell out of bed
hurting my head
from things that I'd said
Till I finally died,
which started the whole world living
Oh, if I'd only see
oh yeah
that the joke was one me
oh no
that the joke was one me
I started a joke
which started the whole world crying
but I didn't see
that the joke was on me
oh no
I started to cry
which started the whole world laughing
Oh, if I'd only seen
that the joke was on me
I looked at the skies
running my hands
over my eyes
and I fell out of bed
hurting my head
from things that I'd said
Till I finally died
which started the whole world living
Oh, if I'd only seen
that the joke was on me
I looked at the skies
running my hands
over my eyes
and I fell out of bed
hurting my head
from things that I'd said
Till I finally died,
which started the whole world living
Oh, if I'd only see
oh yeah
that the joke was one me
oh no
that the joke was one me
Little Puppy
one little puppy
canned by his master
it hurts so bad
it runs off
away from home
never coming back
he lost his shelter
he has no food
he is cold
one little puppy
can't take the pain
but he is now vulnerable
canned by his master
it hurts so bad
it runs off
away from home
never coming back
he lost his shelter
he has no food
he is cold
one little puppy
can't take the pain
but he is now vulnerable
Monday, December 1, 2008
Setelah Kufahami
setelah kupahami
ku bukan yang terbaik
yang ada di hatimu
tak dapat kusangsikan
ternyata dirinyalah
yang mengerti kamu
bukanlah diriku
kini maafkanlah aku
bila ku menjadi bisu
kepada dirimu
bukan santunku terbungkam
hanya hatiku berbatas
tuk mengerti kamu
maafkanlah aku
walau kumasih mencintaimu
kuharus meninggalkanmu
kuharus melupakanmu
meski hatiku menyayangimu
nurani membutuhkanmu
kuharus merelakanmu
dan hanyalah dirimu
yang mampu memahamiku
yang dapat mengerti aku
ternyata dirinyalah
yang sanggup menyanjungmu
yang lama menyentuhmu
bukanlah diriku
ku bukan yang terbaik
yang ada di hatimu
tak dapat kusangsikan
ternyata dirinyalah
yang mengerti kamu
bukanlah diriku
kini maafkanlah aku
bila ku menjadi bisu
kepada dirimu
bukan santunku terbungkam
hanya hatiku berbatas
tuk mengerti kamu
maafkanlah aku
walau kumasih mencintaimu
kuharus meninggalkanmu
kuharus melupakanmu
meski hatiku menyayangimu
nurani membutuhkanmu
kuharus merelakanmu
dan hanyalah dirimu
yang mampu memahamiku
yang dapat mengerti aku
ternyata dirinyalah
yang sanggup menyanjungmu
yang lama menyentuhmu
bukanlah diriku
Sesayap Terkulai
Genggam tanganku ini
Se erat kudratmu
Buat kali terakhir ini
Kerana perlu
ku katakan buatmu
sejelas-jelasnya
Ambillah sesayap
Yang terkulai ini
Terbangkan kembali
Dan hiduplah
Semahu-mahunya
Dan jika kau terdengar
Nyanyian puisi ini
Pasti kan terbuka pintu
Kita masuk bersama
Kerana kasih
Kaulah sebahagian
Daging dan darah
Pada tubuhku
Se erat kudratmu
Buat kali terakhir ini
Kerana perlu
ku katakan buatmu
sejelas-jelasnya
Ambillah sesayap
Yang terkulai ini
Terbangkan kembali
Dan hiduplah
Semahu-mahunya
Dan jika kau terdengar
Nyanyian puisi ini
Pasti kan terbuka pintu
Kita masuk bersama
Kerana kasih
Kaulah sebahagian
Daging dan darah
Pada tubuhku
One Rarest Night
One rarest night
There was peace
In Slumber Land
It was the first night
Hugging
Kissing
One rarest night
It was calm
In Slumber Land
It was the first night
Everything went still
Love was by its own
No missing
One rarest night
After the world
went upside down
There was peace
In Slumber Land
It was the first night
Hugging
Kissing
One rarest night
It was calm
In Slumber Land
It was the first night
Everything went still
Love was by its own
No missing
One rarest night
After the world
went upside down
Mati Dalam Pelukan
Aku mati
Di dalam dakapanmu
Mungkin kerana sesuatu
Yang kau katakan
Aku terus mati
Di dalam pelukanmu
Aku terus menagih
Sesuatu bukan milikku
Hati-hati yang luka
Bergelimpangan di sisiku
Dairi hidupmu di hujung katilku
Dalam jendela yang tertutup
Siapa yang dapat fikirkan
Se nakal budak seperti aku
Cekalnya hingga ke sini
Aku mati
Di dalam dakapanmu
Adakah ini kucupan sakti?
Aku seharusnya berpaling
Dan berjalan pergi
Apakah alasan terbaik
Bagi perasaan ini
Pada mukanya
Aku hanya satu dalam senarai
Tetapi aku berbeza, tersendiri
Namun tetap kecundang
Aku kehilangan
Lalu berjumpa kembali
Cinta yang khusus hanya menerima
Takkan memberi
Aku terus teruja dalam kebimbangan
Dek tuntutan keramat jiwa abadi
Aku mati
Di dalam dakapanmu
Malam-malam yang amat panas
Lalu kau permudahkan
Lalu kau menenangkan
Di dalam dakapanmu
Mungkin kerana sesuatu
Yang kau katakan
Aku terus mati
Di dalam pelukanmu
Aku terus menagih
Sesuatu bukan milikku
Hati-hati yang luka
Bergelimpangan di sisiku
Dairi hidupmu di hujung katilku
Dalam jendela yang tertutup
Siapa yang dapat fikirkan
Se nakal budak seperti aku
Cekalnya hingga ke sini
Aku mati
Di dalam dakapanmu
Adakah ini kucupan sakti?
Aku seharusnya berpaling
Dan berjalan pergi
Apakah alasan terbaik
Bagi perasaan ini
Pada mukanya
Aku hanya satu dalam senarai
Tetapi aku berbeza, tersendiri
Namun tetap kecundang
Aku kehilangan
Lalu berjumpa kembali
Cinta yang khusus hanya menerima
Takkan memberi
Aku terus teruja dalam kebimbangan
Dek tuntutan keramat jiwa abadi
Aku mati
Di dalam dakapanmu
Malam-malam yang amat panas
Lalu kau permudahkan
Lalu kau menenangkan
Mati Dalam Pelukan
Aku mati
Di dalam dakapanmu
Mungkin kerana sesuatu
Yang kau katakan
Aku terus mati
Di dalam pelukanmu
Aku terus menagih
Sesuatu bukan milikku
Hati-hati yang luka
Bergelimpangan di sisiku
Dairi hidupmu di hujung katilku
Dalam jendela yang tertutup
Siapa yang dapat fikirkan
Se nakal budak seperti aku
Cekalnya hingga ke sini
Aku mati
Di dalam dakapanmu
Adakah ini kucupan sakti?
Aku seharusnya berpaling
Dan berjalan pergi
Apakah alasan terbaik
Bagi perasaan ini
Pada mukanya
Aku hanya satu dalam senarai
Tetapi aku berbeza, tersendiri
Namun tetap kecundang
Aku kehilangan
Lalu berjumpa kembali
Cinta yang khusus hanya menerima
Takkan memberi
Aku terus teruja dalam kebimbangan
Dek tuntutan keramat jiwa abadi
Aku mati
Di dalam dakapanmu
Malam-malam yang amat panas
Lalu kau permudahkan
Lalu kau menenangkan
Di dalam dakapanmu
Mungkin kerana sesuatu
Yang kau katakan
Aku terus mati
Di dalam pelukanmu
Aku terus menagih
Sesuatu bukan milikku
Hati-hati yang luka
Bergelimpangan di sisiku
Dairi hidupmu di hujung katilku
Dalam jendela yang tertutup
Siapa yang dapat fikirkan
Se nakal budak seperti aku
Cekalnya hingga ke sini
Aku mati
Di dalam dakapanmu
Adakah ini kucupan sakti?
Aku seharusnya berpaling
Dan berjalan pergi
Apakah alasan terbaik
Bagi perasaan ini
Pada mukanya
Aku hanya satu dalam senarai
Tetapi aku berbeza, tersendiri
Namun tetap kecundang
Aku kehilangan
Lalu berjumpa kembali
Cinta yang khusus hanya menerima
Takkan memberi
Aku terus teruja dalam kebimbangan
Dek tuntutan keramat jiwa abadi
Aku mati
Di dalam dakapanmu
Malam-malam yang amat panas
Lalu kau permudahkan
Lalu kau menenangkan
Puisi Utk Sang Puteri
Menjunjung kasih cinta setia
Biar luka jemala hamba
Membuai rindu santapan kalbu
Asal dapat sentuh bayangmu
Sulaman emas kebaya labuh
Untuk puteri berpadan sungguh
Mabuk kepayang sekelip mata
Jangan hamba dianggap gila
Ingin membina istana dari permata
Malang sekali hamba tak punya apa
Ingin mencoret warkah bertinta emas
Tapi sayang tiada indah bahasa hamba
Hanya mencoret warkah usang
Untuk melepas kasih dan sayang
Jangan hamba dianggap gila
Niat suci di hati hamba
Biar luka jemala hamba
Membuai rindu santapan kalbu
Asal dapat sentuh bayangmu
Sulaman emas kebaya labuh
Untuk puteri berpadan sungguh
Mabuk kepayang sekelip mata
Jangan hamba dianggap gila
Ingin membina istana dari permata
Malang sekali hamba tak punya apa
Ingin mencoret warkah bertinta emas
Tapi sayang tiada indah bahasa hamba
Hanya mencoret warkah usang
Untuk melepas kasih dan sayang
Jangan hamba dianggap gila
Niat suci di hati hamba
The Test Of Time
So many nights
So many tears
For just one moment
In heaven
To see the beauty
Right between my eyes
Just to bring home
an aftermath
Of pain
Of humiliation
So many days
So much to serve for
For just one day
In the brightest sunlight
To see the rainbow
Of colors never so alive
Just to bring back
Blindness
Of sore
Of sorrow
Some many years
For a single hope
For just to meet
To handover a gift
A lasting love in a grail
It stood tested
But time would just not forgive
Where the truth is overridden
By sense, by science
Many more days to come
Many more years
Many more tears
Love will just stand
Beyond the test of time
So many tears
For just one moment
In heaven
To see the beauty
Right between my eyes
Just to bring home
an aftermath
Of pain
Of humiliation
So many days
So much to serve for
For just one day
In the brightest sunlight
To see the rainbow
Of colors never so alive
Just to bring back
Blindness
Of sore
Of sorrow
Some many years
For a single hope
For just to meet
To handover a gift
A lasting love in a grail
It stood tested
But time would just not forgive
Where the truth is overridden
By sense, by science
Many more days to come
Many more years
Many more tears
Love will just stand
Beyond the test of time
Winter Song
The moment I long for you
My heart trembles
It’s you I crave the most
Sending an eclipse
All over my senses
I’ve been lost in this love
Burning my entire self
It’s just you, only you
There’s never another you
It’s been days without sunlight
It’s been night with no moon light
Without you there is no couple
I love you to the end of time
It could be heavens
There is no houri
You are my last breath
Come home never turning back
I’ve been restlessly waiting
Like the snow flakes
Blown by the wind
It’ll land on the ground
I simply trust
God blesses this love
I’d pray you’d come
The lady on my throne
To live and to die
For love
We remain together
My heart trembles
It’s you I crave the most
Sending an eclipse
All over my senses
I’ve been lost in this love
Burning my entire self
It’s just you, only you
There’s never another you
It’s been days without sunlight
It’s been night with no moon light
Without you there is no couple
I love you to the end of time
It could be heavens
There is no houri
You are my last breath
Come home never turning back
I’ve been restlessly waiting
Like the snow flakes
Blown by the wind
It’ll land on the ground
I simply trust
God blesses this love
I’d pray you’d come
The lady on my throne
To live and to die
For love
We remain together
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