Libra

Just to add more to it, my daughter appeared beside me and said,” Dad, you are a Libra right? Wanna know what you are?”. Grinning, boy, I just could not help it but stopped and started to listen to her. She’s been sick, most of the time, my thoughts started running. Just felt like hugging her and I knew she will push me away and thought that I was acting weird. Well, kids, they just don’t know how much they are felt for.

She had 2 close calls. Twice. She was living on milk for 6 months and all the witty docs I went for had no idea what disease she’s suffering from. Of course, perhaps a RM10k would help. The second one was fighting for life on her bed in the hospital for viral fever that has no cure, again according to the doctors. But these guys didn’t explain much either. I was praying to God, take me, take my life instead. Take my life not hers. She made it, however.

They called you the lame one, dad.
(Yea, kid. I was and I am. Now don’t you grow up like your old man, okay. My thoughts sort of whispered into her ears. If it wasn’t for that, you should have gotten a descent room for you, poor thing. I’d never forgive myself for that, for sure)

Nice to everyone they meet
(Hmm, until life teaches you all the lessons you need to know, dear, my thoughts whisper again)

Their love is one of a kind
(Darling, tell me about it. I could not understand it myself)

Silly, fun and sweet
(Until you get cooked ‘well done’ and metamorphosed to your bones, then it’ll be the other way around, honey)

Have own unique appeal
(Did you ever know that people used me to scare their kids, like I am monster. I going for a hunch or a hump transplant. Life could have been better if I am ‘Shrek”)

Most caring person you will ever meet
(My business been a single sided transaction this far in my life and don’t ask me why cause you will never understand. I am glad you are not a Libra.)

She went on and on, and I listened to her, smiling and nodding my head. But most of all, I watched her. She’s a grown up now, a 19 year old. She’d get married one day. I hope she’ll find love, true love. I hope her marriage will be bonded by love, true love. Not sacrifices.