Build, Rebuilding

My entire life was
Build
and rebuilding
Paint
and repainting
To make it happen
To have it all like others
To have a place I’d call home
To have space where I belong

It was all fake
As fake as I always see them
It was all deceits
Mere make-beliefs
And this is world
As I thought

For all that I strived for
Just to fit in like the rest
Delivering smiles but all pretence
Just as they do themselves
Yet they turned against me
Holding me by the neck
Threatening my life
Holding the painting
And the building
Have it all against me

All my life
I have been building
And rebuilding
Painting
And repainting
To the day I discovered reality
She has me in her arms
Taking my life
All against my true self
My true love